I'm doing 41 things
Got my restricted last week. Just a few more months until I can go for my full.
Katy's Life List
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1. Get my full driver's licence
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2. Read a book every night
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3. Beat my depression
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4. Bank my sperm
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5. Start taking female hormones
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6. Start permanently removing my facial hair
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7. Eat more healthy foods
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8. photograph my city
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9. Practice and perfect my voice so that it sounds natural and feminine
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10. Wear only women's clothes, androgynous at first
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11. Get my adam's apple reduced
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12. be a better person
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13. Pierce my ears and wear ear rings
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14. Tell all my friends and family I want to be a woman
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15. Speak fluent French
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16. Learn to cook
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17. Get a new job
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18. Get a new hair style
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19. Show all my friends and family the girl me
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20. Have a female best friend
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21. Have real friends who respect me for who I am
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22. Leave home and become independent
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23. learn self defence
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24. Learn to sail
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25. Start living as a woman full-time before I turn 30
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26. Legally change my name to Katherine
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27. Enroll at university as a woman before my 30th birthday
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28. Change my Birth Certificate to female
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29. Start going back to church
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30. Learn to dance again
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31. Start wearing clothes that are more feminine
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32. Take more photos
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33. Graduate university as a woman
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34. Complete gender transition
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35. Visit my family in London
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36. Live in France
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37. Contribute more to 43things
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38. stop feeling lonely
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39. Wear a bra everyday
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40. go for a walk every morning
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41. Lose 10kg
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How I did it
It made me 
How I did it: I was meaning to write something about this. Been taking anti-depressants the past few weeks through a psychiatrist. Still feel a little sad sometimes but otherwise much more relaxed and less stressed out. Really helped me feel much less irritable about life. Maybe not much action, although I did tour a local cave a day short of August if that counts. But I have been cleaning out lots of rubbish that's been accumulating over the years. Mo… Read how I did it…
It made me
Happy
How I did it: Seeing a nice lady for counselling. It was really nice being able to talk with someone about how I feel and not feel judged. Hopefully I will gain a better understand of my feelings and be able to think more clearly about my future. Read how I did it…
It made me 
How I did it: Sometimes I surprise myself. It went OK, not great but OK. He referred me to the same psychiatrist I saw a few years ago. But I did learn how much shame these feelings cause me. Reminds me how big a challenge this is going to be. Read how I did it…
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Recent entries
Saw my doctor not long ago about this and I have an appointment at the hospital next January. But he said the waiting lists are so long that I’ll probably never get seen to. So it looks like I may be forced to pay for this one myself.
To be honest, I don’t really know why I want to be a woman. It seems like one of the most common questions people ask me who seem to think that I always know the answer. But I haven’t a clue why. It does seem like something that’s just “all in my head” that all I need to do is just try harder to accept who I am already.
When I first noticed hair growing on my upper lip I plucked them relentlessly with my finger nails before later using tweezers. Eventually I ended up using an epilator. But plucking made me feel so much better that it was worth all the pain. I just hated it so much.
Shame, too, has been a defining feature in my life since my early high school days. Since the age of 14 I’ve never been in the water swimming. I know I shouldn’t be so superficial but I absolutely hated the way my body was changing.
However, despite this I still have a few doubts at the back of my mind. Becoming a woman would be a HUGE change and to be honest scares the hell out of me. The stress of it is driving me crazy. It would completely change all my relationships not only with friends and family but with strangers too. I think is is going to be the hardest thing I ever do in life.
