keedle

my dad has worked for delta all my life, and i cant imagine a world without it!!!

this just sounded cool when i read others’ descriptions of doing this. it sounds overwhelming and scary, and rarely do i experience those two emotions in my daily life. so i want to try this!

i know i have purposely avoided men when i could feel my emotions getting the best of me. i just dont want to be hurt and ashamed…

it’s funny, because for a long time i fooled myself into thinking i didnt care what people thought of me. but finally acknowledging that i DO care has been very refreshing, because when i accept that this devil does exist then i can begin processes to weed this [act of self-consciousness] out of my life. like the 12 steps of alcoholism-recovery.

this whole acting thing is something that has been simmering in the back of my mind for years. i’m in acting classes now, and i understand the whole simmering process i have been through.

for me acting is an exercise is self-disclosure [to an audience], and to do that effectively one has to undergo self-evaluation. you have to understand your emotions and not be ashamed to expose them to others. at first it felt very vulnerable, but after a while i understood the strength in that vulnerability and now i relish it.