I'm doing 34 things
This has become more involved since I have gained so much weight. Even some of the clothes I actually like need to go because they don’t fit anymore. I want to get rid of everything I don’t need. I am selling on eBay. I am buying a few things. I’m mostly done buying for now. I did buy a swimsuit top- a tankini to hide my fat- and I bought 2 pairs of jeans, which would be enough, but for the pd trip I’m going on- I will need jeans every day, and I’ll probably get dirty, so I’ll have to have more than 2 pairs. Also, my job in the lab this summer, I’ll probably be allowed to wear jeans there, so again, I’ll need more than 2 pairs.I am back to how I was before I lost all the weight and tried to be fancy and dressy. That’s not me, no matter how I try. I have such a bad habit of trying to be something I’m not. You would think I would grow out of that. I’m working on it.
Down to One's Life List
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1. travel the world
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2. visit all 50 states
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3. Attend Mardi Gras
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4. Improve my articulation and speech- lose my accent
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5. stop being co-dependent
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6. Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.
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7. raise strong, healthy, confident children
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8. add money to my savings every month
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9. have better posture
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10. Listen more than I talk
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11. don't gossip
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12. Stop fake laughing
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13. stop saying "huh?" when I don't hear what someone says to me
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14. develop a healthy eating plan
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15. drink more water
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16. take good care of my car
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17. take more photographs
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18. transfer vhs home movies to dvd
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19. get all my photos into albums
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20. remember to take my medicine every day
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21. learn to eat more slowly
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22. Memorize the names of all 44 US Presidents in order
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23. wash my hands more often
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24. let go of the things I cannot control
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25. get my jealousy in check
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26. do something every day to make myself better
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27. Find a way to be happy alone
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28. Create a wardrobe made up only of pieces I love
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29. paint Noah's bathroom
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30. paint the laundry room
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31. create a 3 ring binder recipe book
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32. Paint Noahs office
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33. read my 43 things list every day
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34. Save $10,000. dollars
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How I did it: I emailed my resume with a nice letter to the principals of schools in which I would be willing to work. I didn't get my first choice, but I did get my second choice definitely. I am going to be teaching high school insead of middle school. My preference for middle school is mainly because I like the teaming concept and you are not isolated in your room. However, my new job does have team planning on a weekly basis with my fellow bio teac… Read how I did it…
I texted him today. I feel hurt and alone today. I cannot do this. I have to look forward, not back. I know it won’t work. I want to have a future with someone.
I am sad and hurting today. I haven’t even gone out with my friends in a month. I am so lonely. I don’t know what is wrong with me. Well, I take that back, I do know a lot that’s wrong with me. I am an adult child of an alcoholic and a raging co-dependent mother. I have PTSD as a result of my childhood. I am a fucked up mess and I always pick the wrong men. I don’t know how to fix it.
