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I’m not really sure why I felt the necessity to post this as a goal. There isn’t one person on the planet that doesn’t strive for success. Now the ultimate meaning behind the six letter word means different things to each person, that doesn’t stop anyone from attempting to achieve it.

To me to be successful means to complete all my goals to my own personal satisfaction, to make the people I love and care about proud about my accomplishments – mainly to give my parents something to brag about ;) See having that own definition in mind seems like a pretty defined outline, almost makes it seem as if I have it all together – which would be completely wrong.

I am a person of lists. I like them.. no I love them, I love the way they look, the structure of them, the obviousness of them the sense of accomplishment I get from checking something off of my lists. The problem is, that I love them so much that I write to many of them, I loose them and in my struggle for perfection I loose sight of the real reason I’m making them. Now before I go off on a rant that will generally confuse anyone attempting to follow my thought process, what I mean to say is I have a success list.

My success list changes every day, I obtain new goals, I get inspired by new things and I change my mind. When I started an account on here my goals circulated on attending culinary school, and owning my own restaurant – now I still want to do that (the restaurant bit, nothing to do with school) But I’m currently in college for Business Sales and Marketing, and when I graduate next year, I intend to come back to my college with a post grad program with Business Entertainment and Sports marketing, possibly attempt to squish that program in with my Public Relations program and go for the gold.

If you’re still following, my point is – I want to many things, I change my mind and I go back, I want to be a jack of all trades AND master in all of them. Wish me luckkk, god knows I will need it ;)

Getting a blackberry when I was younger was a thing of prestige, all the coolest kids had one, it was new and impressive. Something that I wanted to have a part in, the exclusive Blackberry club. Yet here I am with over a year of blackberry usage under my belt wondering why I ever decided this was a good idea.

Now in RIM’s defense I did opt for the economy blackberry, I ended up with the Blackberry Curve 8530, simple yet effective. I was in the middle, I didn’t have the lowly Pearl but I wasn’t glowing with the Bold. After owning my phone for over a half a year the charm started to wear off, the constant freezing, lagging and seizures my phone has experienced is ridiculous; especially seeing as I have yet to do any terrible damage to it.. so it has met a few floors but it was in a lovely shock resistant case.

I’m sitting here gazing at my scratched, but still shiny blackberry curve wondering what I ever did to it to decided that I am not worthy enough to have all my apps work, or that all of a sudden Wi-fi connections are to hard for it to use, or that my battery at 100% suddenly drops to “To low for radio use” the minute I attempt to have a chat with anyone.

One thing RIM has done for sure, was reel me in, yeah there customer service is terrible, and yes there devices certainly are not at par with the rest of the SmartPhone industry but the general experience they offer with the prestigious (although declining) name will keep me coming back. BlackBerry is practically ancient, the only other type of smartphone I could see myself purchasing would be and iphone and at this current time I am a poor college kid; blackberries are affordable and occasionally reliable – and that’s good enough for me.

I’m tired of being that person, that constantly has to schedule things in, that never has time to do the things that I actually want to do, who continuously puts sleep in front of a good time. My goal this summer is to spend the five months, saying yes to everything (with in reason of course).

I want to live in the moment, stop turning down parties because of work or stop turning down random hangouts because I think it’ll get awkward. One summer – that will change my whole outlook on life, now I may end up returning to college with out any rest and hating everyone around me but I plan to have an endless string of amazing stories with great people, I want a summer that I will never forget.