This summer was the hardest I have ever had to live through. It wasn’t terrible to start with, I’m luck I have very few needs. The struggling started in the last few weeks just before school started up again. Having to pay for all of those over priced books and tuition on top of just getting back to work. It has only been five weeks since everything got difficult and I am hoping as I continue to work that it will get better.
I’m currently renovating my bathroom and before anything could be ripped out I had to remove all my stuff(soaps, shampoo and conditioner, face wash, lotions, body sprays, etc). I had no idea I had this much bathroom junk. I have been slowly but surely working my way through it. I made myself swear not to buy anything more unless it was completely gone and I needed it(toothpaste for instance).
I designed my mom’s house and my own I think that counts.
I just watch the trailer for the movie Eat, Pray, Love about a hundred times. And I realise that there is something missing in my life. Every time I want to go somewhere, to have an adventure I find the people I care for most telling me that I must be out of my mind. How could I be so stupid to go anywhere alone. Traveling is not what I need right now. What they don’t know is that in the silence of the night I break into a million pieces and I cry. I have more burdens on my young life to rival that of someone twice my age. I am struggling to force myself to get my degree let alone achieve my dreams. I need… ... ...
I need to get up off my lazy bum. I can say that all the walking I have been doing has helped my figure. I now wear between size 0 – 2 in all my clothes. Almost everything I have from before is so big it isn’t worth having tailored. Even so with my days being slower now I am bored out of my mind. I often find myself sitting on my rump. I don’t watch t.v., thank goodness, but I am still wasting my time. I need to find something, other than classes, to do.
I can honestly say with all my heart that having a balance on your credit card sucks. I am doing fine finishing with paying this off. I have had to slow down over the summer. I just can’t wait to be done with it. Never again will I let it get this far.
Going to the bank today. I’m already over half way there. I think maybe three more months and I will be good.
I have been getting up earlier in the morning so I have time to exercise. It is so hard but afterwards I feel great. I am not doing a lot at this time mostly just stretching and a quick half hour workout. I figure if I am going to keep with this I have to start out really slow, make it a habit, then up the difficulty.
I paid this month off. It’s not a big achievement, but every little bit counts right? I feel better for it even though I don’t have any money right now.
One card down one to go. It is a relief to have only one card to left to pay off. The stress is significantly reduced. I still wish they were both paid off.
I leave for a two week visit to England in February. I am so excited. While I am there I will be looking for a place to live. Oh! I can’t believe how exciting this is.
I have come in contact with the company I will be using when I move. The company proved a few of my estimations as to the cost of the move and the time it will take for everything to get form here to there. I am quite pleased with everything so far. I do have a bit of a problem with the massive amounts of, what seems to me, junk that I have to eliminate before I move. Oh Boy!
I was talking recently to a woman who grew up in the UK, she also, coincidently, has dual citizenship both here in the US and in the UK. Anyway, she told me that because my British is easily identifiable that I may be able to get dual citizenship. I don’t know how this works or even if I want it but it is something to look into.
I paid my credit card bill earlier this month. Even so I am planning to put more down in a few days.
School has started up again.
I went to the bank today and made another payment on my credit card. Maybe I will will be able to pay it off sooner than I thought.
I went to the bank to day paid this month’s dues. I pay more than the minimum and I think that is what keeps reminding me that I can’t be frivolous with my money.
I have already started to prepare to move to England. Most of what I have done is small stuff like getting rid of things, paying off loans and credit cards, and saving money. I keep losing track of where I am so I am going to make a better effort to keep my pace.