you know, i thought this would be easier. but considering the fact that i have a freaking low self esteem and the pressure from my parents of being so perfect is so high, it seems impossible at this point.
i think i just need to get out of the way of everyone else that thinks i can’t get it. because they make me think maybe i can’t. and i know that i can. i just have to do my best in what i think i’m ment to be.
i just hope it’s soon. because i’m so tired of the stress of it. i just want it to be now. ugh. i feel like crap. and an idiot.
