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I finally found out why I have this problem. I decided to tell my therapist, who I have been seeing for about two months, about it, which was extremely difficult. But she responded very well and was proud of me for bringing it up. I probably have what is known as Sensory Integration Dysfunction, which basically means that my five senses are hypersensitive and do wacky things. Well, it turns out that people with this disorder often have problems with masturbation. This also explains why I started so early (as a toddler); children with this dysfunction masturbate frequently as a way to soothe themselves. What this all means to me is that it’s not necessarily an addiction but a compulsion, and that I’m not really a sex addict because this doesn’t really have to do with sexual pleasure. I always felt a little disconnected from this group because, not only does it mostly consist of males, but they always talk about “lusting” after women. I don’t constantly lust after men, I just have a very sensitive body that paved the way for a problem like this. It’ll be interesting to see what else my therapist says about it. This is day 656 of abstinence.

Hello to everyone; I hope you guys are doing well and staying strong. I think I hit day 600 around July 5th. I continue to experience orgasms in my sleep WAY too often, but there is nothing I can really do about that. The urge is just a part of my life and some days it’s easier than others. For some reason, it’s especially bad after I go to the bathroom (either one)-I’m guessing I must have trained my body to want to MB after going to the bathroom. So that’s when I have to be my strongest. As always, keep going and keep starting over if you need to. I don’t know if it’s a little different for men, but as a female, I can tell you that it’s possible to make it this far if you constantly say “no” to the urge.

This truly is a habit that always comes back. I think I have to accept that I’ll go through these phases and eventually come out of them. My mouth is torn up so badly and I hate how much time I waste doing this. I wonder how long it will take to stop this time.