kirstindavis07

so i’ve finally been able to eat lately, quite a bit actually, thanks to the diet pills that i’ve been taking. they aren’t really keeping much weight off of me tho, of course i have been binging. i just weighed myself today and i weigh 122lbs. i guess that means im begining to get better. i broke up with my bf whom i’ve been dating for a year now and i realized that i wouldn’t eat much because i was so stressed out whenever i thought about him. hopefully i continue to maintain this weight… its better for me in the long run, right?

so i’ve figured out that the more weight that i lose, the less insecure i feel. it helps motivate me to lose more weight, as well as try new things. i used to be kind of adventurous, but now i’m willing to try and do anything. i even went skinny dipping a couple of times last week- and yes, i was the first one in the water! pretty shocking for me if i may say so myself! well, hopefully i can do something just as crazy and out of character this week…

I just binged today, but i haven’t been able to purge… yes, i realize that it can hurt me in more ways than one, but im feeling really nasty. for some reason i’ve been wanting to binge and purge more than not eating. wtf is going on!?