kit_10

is it true… does it take a minimum of half the time you went out with someone to get over them if your not one of those people who can jump from person to person? I went out with my first love fora year and a half… with times of on and off… and even though he did cheat on me numerous times why can’t I feel the effect of I HATE YOU towards him… why do i just want him even after almost two months of not “being with him” and him having a new girlfriend and me living far away from him. Why if he suprised me and showed up at my door or told me he missed me and wanted to see me, would I not hesitate and take him back, even though i know that i would probably just end up even more hurt than before which would probably lead me to seeking help… SHIT I just want him back… or do i just want someone that will give me that feeling again… oh how i need that feeling again to tell me everything is going to be ok, and that i’m going to love again and be loved

I change so often…I can’t ever fit into one persona.. I must be atleast two. There are times when I can’t decide , I would rather someone else just make the decision! And the other times I can be so decisive and know what do do and how to make people do what I want.. I guess there is the selfish side of me who knows what i want and how i want it and then there’s the non-selfish side of me who doesn’t care enough about the decision that needs to be made to want to make it. Decisions are so mind boggling sometimes.. and half the time I just get called “difficult” because i can’ make them when people want me to.

It was great i went with my school’s basketball andvolleyball teams. We stayed at eh tropicoco hotel which was huge and definatly not a resort but pretty damn good!!! we played sports in teh morning then we visited teh fortrice, went salsa dancing , went on walking tours, went to the market, chillaxed on teh beach, had a grande ol time it was quite teh experince. Three words to describe the ppl there, overly friendly and kinda creepy sometimes yah. But it was still an amazing place inthe world to experience i totally recommend it!!!!! Go Che!!!!