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It hasn’t been as hard as I thought it would be but I haven’t really been tempted. I really miss drinking wine with dinner, but so far I have been able to make the right choice. I think I am losing weight easier also! I have been working out and eating right for the past few months and haven’t lost anything, but I think it was the drinking that was hurting my diet and workout plan. I feel alot better about myself. We’ll see what happens… I am going to a wedding in a month and I think that will be the true test of being able to stay away from the drinking!

So last night I got really drunk at my friend’s wedding, left my purse there and pissed off my boyfriend. I did the same thing 2 weeks ago at a wine tasting festival. He told me I have 2 strikes and he is done being mr. nice guy. I understand because I am a very bad drunk. When I am in a situation where there is an open bar or a party I just do not know when to stop. I get drunker than everyone else at the party and usually don’t remember things. So I need to stop drinking … I haven’t really tried before but I think it will be hard for awhile. One of our friends is in AA and has been sober for 5 years so I am planning to talk to him about it. I am worried I won’t be able to do it, but I am 25 and I don’t want to continue being like this anymore.

My boyfriend is going to break up with me if I don’t stop complaining… I am going to die if this happens because I am in love with him and I us to eventually get married. I have a really demanding job that requires travel and overtime (unpaid) which I complain about frequently…then I also complain that we live in LA and the traffic sucks and we can’t afford a house… most of the time I watch myself and don’t complain but sometimes I forget and then he freaks out about my complaining.. I don’t know what to do but I guess I am going to try doing it day by day… Is there anyone with some advice for me?