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My leave was approved today which made M. (my travel companion) extremely happy. I’m excited for having some more adventures together. M. and I have some good stories from trips we’ve done together.

I’ve known for a few years now that there is nothing I love more than a holiday. For my 21st birthday party I even had an “around the world” theme because there was nothing else I could think of that I enjoyed doing more than travelling.

My friend, who is a teacher and has heaps of holiday time, goes away almost every single break. Although I don’t have the luxury of school holidays I think I should make more of an effort to do the things I enjoy and get out there and see the world.

S. is planning on saving this year and doesn’t want to plan any holidays and I was going to go along with that. Until it occured to me that I don’t need to holiday with him! I’m sure I could find plenty of friends that would be willing to duck away to Thailand or Fiji for a week.

So my goal is to holiday more. If I’ve got the money and I’m on top of things then I should enjoy it.

I’m doing pretty bad at eating healthy these days. I just always crave sweet things and I can’t seem to hold back from buying them. Even now I’m contemplating ducking next door to the cafe and buying a slice of caramel tart.

Since being on paleo though I’ve noticed that when I do splurge on things I tend to feel the effects afterwards. For instance, for lunch today I had a chicken and salad wrap and even though it really wasn’t that bad of a splurge…my stomach is already feeling a bit out of sorts.

I just love sweet things! I decided yesterday it was because I have a Hungarian background and Hungarian’s love sweets. So what can I say? It’s in my blood.

I need a sweet alternative. Fruit just doesn’t seem to do the trick.

I created a blog design and name I like the look of and have written my first entry, which is basically just an intro to the blog and the name behind the blog.

I need to come up with some concepts of what to write about. Or maybe I’m over thinking it and I just need to start sharing. I feel like a I need to get a decent camera so I can put up some good photos.

Over the past year I have really gotten into reading blogs. I feel like I know the blog authors so well and that they are my friends. I only wish I really did know them! When I told S. about this he suggested I write on own blog and then maybe I will get to meet those other blog writers. I would really love to start a blog but honestly…I don’t have anything to write about. Nobody would want to hear what I have to say it would be that dull.

And so it begins.

Uni started yesterday so I watched my first lecture of the year yesterday after work. I forgot how time consuming uni is and you really have to be smart with your time management. Not just with uni work, but with all the other household duties I have to take care of as well.

Once again I have started this semester with high hopes for productivity…let’s see how long that lasts for.

I feel like I am living my life how I think it should be. Like I’m following a recipe or following a predetermined course. And I wonder if the path I have envisaged for myself is the right one.

The course I have mapped out is pretty standard and focuses on finishing uni, developing my career and I guess being successful. Often I want to throw my ambitions aside, quit my job and just travel. Travel the world and make money working in a cafe or some other carefree kind of job with minimal responsibility.

I’m scared of making the wrong decisions in my life and then ending up unhappy or unfulfilled. The older I get, the quicker the years seem to fly by and I don’t want to miss out on anything because I took the one path that I thought was the right, sensible, necessary one to take.

When is the right time to listen to my deepest internal thoughts and feelings and challenge my life plan?

Since getting back from Japan life has been a bit off kilter. We moved house which took up a lot of time and then this past weekend we went down to Sydney for a wedding. Uni starts next week and I really want to get back into a healthy lifestyle routine so that my mind, body and spirit can manage the stress of 3/4 time uni and full time work plus everything else. I want to get back into paleo more completely and get back into exercising every day. For exercise I want to do the following:

Monday – walk up Castle Hill
Tuesday – soccer training
Wednesday – morning walk/jog
Thursday – soccer training
Friday – morning walk/jog
Saturday – rest day aka gardening/house cleaning
Sunday – yoga or walk up Castle Hill

In terms of my paleo diet the hardest thing lately has been planning out my week of meals. I have been completely unmotivated to do so which means we end up just buying whatever at the supermarket and then making whatever we can from that. This works okay except that I end up eating salads every day for lunch which bores the crap out of me. I don’t know how to refocus on this…I’ll have a think about it.

On the weekend we were down visiting in Sydney and we were spending a lot of time on the road. When I’m not doing my usual routine my water drinking habits get out of whack…especially when we are driving for long distances and I don’t have heaps of bottles of water. We stopped at a drive through Maccas at one point and I was on the verge of ordering a medium coke BUT I stopped myself and ordered a small coke with no ice. I was proud of myself…except that I shouldn’t really be drinking coke anyway because it’s not good for you…

Argh, I’m so tired this morning I can barely think straight. No idea what to have as my intention today. Think, think, think. All I can concentrate on is whether I should go down and buy a coffee or not.

Okay! Came up with one! I haven’t been to Thursday night soccer training all year, which is really only 3 weeks since the start of training, but still. Because S. is at home on Thursday evenings I’ve found it very easy to come up with an excuse of why I shouldn’t go. But tonight I’m going to make the effort to go.

Postscript: looks like I’ll be missing soccer again tonight…we got a list from our old real estate of all the things we need to go back and fix at the old place. We are going away for the weekend and leave tomorrow at midday so tonight will be our only chance to go back. Besides, I’d rather get it out of the way tonight so that tomorrow we can be all leisurely.

Last night we had a bit of drama. I was at home alone (with puss) and I heard something hit the bin and then on the other side of the house I heard something rustling through the bushes. We’ve moved house recently and aren’t familar with the area and there has recently been a lot of stories in the news about young boys stealing cars and robbing houses in our whole town. I got scared and thought that it sounded like somebody was moving around the house. I called S. at work and told him and he said he would come home now to check it out. Unfortunately he had ridden his pushbike to work so had to borrow a car from one of his work colleagues.

After he got home, he checked around the outsides of the house with a torch but couldn’t see anything. He only had an hour left of his shift so I decided to go back with him and wait until he finished because I was still a bit shaken up. Then the work colleague’s car wouldn’t restart! S. had left the lights on whilst he checked out the house but that hadn’t taken more than 5min so we were a bit shocked that the battery had died.

We drove my car back to his work and I drove the work colleague, who we had borrowed the car from, home. We charged her car battery overnight but this morning it still wouldn’t start up. We’ve had to call the RACQ and wait for them to come out and take a look at it.

I feel so bad. All this drama over nothing. And this poor girl who so willingly leant S. her car is now car-less. I don’t think that the battery dying is our fault but the car was still in our care when it happened so I can’t imagine her, or her parents, would be happy about it. I feel like such a drama queen and I’m embarrassed that I overreacted and as a result we’ve put somebody out.

Now that I’ve relayed that story here, I want to leave it here. It’s not going to help anyone by dwelling on it. I just need to push forward and do what I can to help. I think I will get her a small gift to say thank you and sorry for everything.

Sometimes I feel like I listen to people without actually listening to them. Today I’m going to try to be a more active listener by looking at people when they talk to me and giving them my full attention.

Not sure how to pronounce this one exactly but I had a glass the other night with our V-Day dinner. It is a red wine and it was served to us chilled, not sure if that is the norm with pinot noir. I liked it though. I thought it was smooth and quite fruity. It was an enjoyable glass of wine to drink.

Well…just one mountain in particular. I have been lazy this past week during the house moving and haven’t bothered to do much exercise. I’d like to get back into it today and walk up the hill. It has been a bit rainy lately so hopefully I can motivate myself enough to go up despite the rain.

M. and I were really close friends when I lived back in Sydney but since I moved up here it has kind of been a struggle. Whenever we talk on the phone she seems to dominate the conversation so it’s a bit hard for me to get excited about calling her.

She rang me on Friday night but I had to cut the conversation short because I was meeting S. for dinner during his work break. I told her I would call her sometime on Sat or Sun.

Sat went past and then Sun was slowly trickling through my fingers. I was on the verge of throwing in the towel and not calling just because I wasn’t motivated for it. But then the clouds cleared and I decided it was the right thing to do because I had said I would.

I rang and we spoke for almost an hour and a half. She has a lot of drama in her life and I try to give her helpful advice. I don’t think she takes a lot of what I say onboard…but maybe if I keep helping and supporting her, she might actually take what I say seriously one day.

Today my intention was to get the old house all cleaned up and ready for us to hand the keys back on Monday. It went very well actually. We got there are about 10:30am, S. headed straight outside and started mowing on the lawns and I went inside and moved the last of our possessions out. Once it waas all clear I started on the cleaning. It was easier and then also harder to clean when nothing was in there because the house seemed to have so much more space to actually clean. But once we were doing the final vacuuming and mopping it looked really terrific. I hope we get all of our bond back.

I’ve been reading a few style blogs and one of them suggested to use the website “Go Chic or Go Home”. I highly recommend that anyone else who is looking to develop their style checkout/join this website. It is amazing! And free!

I have come up with so many outfit options with the help of this site and haven’t had to wear the same outfit twice when going out. Love it!

I’m still not sure what my “style” is. The photo is of my Valentine’s Day dinner outfit. The skirt is actually a dress that I’ve tucked in to make a skirt, something I do frequently now. This has totally opened up how often I can wear my dresses because I can make them as casual or as dressy as I like.

I MUST do some unpacking tonight. I have been relatively lazy this week and have only unpacked the essentials i.e. kitchen and bathroom things. My goal for today is to get my clothes out of suitcases and into the wardrobe. That will at least clear up the space beside my bed. Oh, and I also want to unpack the TV cabinet stuff and get that all sorted.

Tomorrow is a big day of cleaning. We are heading back to the other house to pick up the last few straggling items and then do a full haul over. And to think I used to live for the weekends…

I’m smashing this goal so far. No slip ups!

Today I’m going to focus on drinking plenty of water. Since I got back from Japan I’ve only just been managing to finish 3 bottles of my normal 4 and I’d really like to get it back up to 4. I find that I am less inclined to snack or look around for food when I am well hydrated.

I’m going to go back to my ol’ trick of putting a rubber band with 4 paperclips on it around my bottle so I can keep track of how many I’ve had.