kris32cat

I definetly would give anything to be in the position I was when I first started writing on this…now he wants to see other people and I basically forced him to give me another chance and now i’m just petrified of getting over how much he crushed me today and opening up again in fear that he’s just going to crush me again in a few weeks. I hate the fact that you can’t see into the future and I won’t see anything comoing like I didn’t see it coming today either….I mean does anyone have any advice for me to not fall apart in the end??? I want so much for everything to just go back to being like it was before but he’s never gonna love me if i keep messing up especially now that he wants to see other people and i’m never gonna let him love me if i shy away now that I was crushed in an awful way once….what do I do?

So I’m totally working wicked hard on it but it actually slowly looks as though I’m doing much better and I’m actually much happier knowing that I can at least make him happier with me then he seemed to be sometimes..It’s a great feeling.

I tried I had given it up for Lent one time and then had to start drinking it again I’m a Diet Coke addict seriously. I think I have about at least over 7 cans of Diet Coke a day actually more like over 8 or 9 it’s bad…everyone tells me my teeth are gonna rot yet I can’t stop drinking it I get awful migranes and it is amazingly good. I totally need some help with this one it seems way too hard to do for me.