kwdobson

i kind of just figured out that i really only have another year left with my current therapist, dietitian, group, and doctor. thats kind of scary. its hard to leave things you are comfortable with. i also know i’m not going to be able to afford any of those things when i move, so it kind of feels like i have a time constraint on this.

when i move to la, im going to have to stop seeing dr pearce, going to aftercare, seeing laura, and i’ll have to switch doctors for medication. i know im going to need some sort of support group when im living up there, but i need it to be free or super cheap. what resources are out there that i will be able to take advantage of? maybe i wont need it, but its probably not a bad idea to start looking…

i want it to come out looking like this:

but i’m afraid it will just end up looking like this:

i highly doubt im crazy enough :p

i used to do this all the time…almost constantly. i did it so much that i started hating it.

but

now i find myself REALLY missing it. its kind of a part of me and i doubt i will ever be able to completely stop. i dont want this to be a career, but i do want to try again, preferably over the summer.

i need to find a theater that is holding auditions for performances during the summer…i don’t want to make a huge time commitment, so i’m not looking for any leads just yet. and, it would be really nice to find a place that pays, but im not going to hold my breath just yet.

does anyone know of any oc theaters that do shows over the summer? let me know

i used to do this all the time…almost constantly. i did it so much that i started hating it.

but

now i find myself REALLY missing it. its kind of a part of me and i doubt i will ever be able to completely stop. i dont want this to be a career, but i do want to try again, preferably over the summer.

i need to find a theater that is holding auditions for performances during the summer…i don’t want to make a huge time commitment, so i’m not looking for any leads just yet. and, it would be really nice to find a place that pays, but im not going to hold my breath just yet.

does anyone know of any oc theaters that do shows over the summer? let me know

so far i can shoot (though i have to be REALLY close to the basket) and i can dribble kind of. sometimes i can even dribble and walk at the same time! cc also taught me how to dribble from side to side, but i am not very good at it yet. that is all i really know how to do so far. i think cc taught me a couple other things but i do not remember them right now. i need to make a commitment to actually practicing playing this stupid game and maybe i will actually be able to play with other people someday.

anyone want to buy me some basketball shoes?

i want to pick a subject and take one picture of it every day for a year. i mean, there are those people who took a picture of what they ate every day for a year or what they wore or something that made them happy, and i really think it would be helpful to have a year-long project with a running theme.

the problem is, what subject?

i dont even have the slightest idea. what is something that is interesting, but that i could also potentially encounter every day? maybe something at school or the animal shelter? i’m not sure. i will probably have to do some brainstorming/sleep on it…

i was told by my dietitian that an easy way to get more water into your day is by starting the morning with 2 glasses of water. Now, if you are like me, it is almost impossible to get ANYTHING in in the morning, so she said start out with 1/2 glass of water in the morning and slowly work up to 2 until it becomes a habit. This is especially helpful if you have vitamins/medications to take in the morning too.

so far, so good. i cant say that im getting in a glass EVERY morning, but overall this has been a good bit of advice.

Has anyone taken music classes at Santa Ana College (specifically orchestral instruments…)

How are they? Are the teachers any good? Should I look elsewhere? What JC has a good instrumental music program?

I have access to a violin, now I just need to find cheap classes AND commit to actually learning the stupid thing. I can already read music pretty well, but I have no clue where to even BEGIN with playing a violin. I’m sure the technique is somewhat different than the piano…

much harder than i thought

i am taking a health psychology class at chapman this semester. when it came time to discuss diet and eating disorders during the lecture section of one of the classes, i was highly disappointed when the only thing we discuss was the obesity epidemic. i understand that this is very serious and an important thing for future therapists to be well-versed in, but i found it confusing and downright offensive that a professor refused to discuss eating disorders in a health psychology class on a COLLEGE CAMPUS (the majority of those affected are young-adult females).

i then looked through the psychology class catalogue to discover that there are numerous classes offer to educate and inform students about psychological afflictions such as abnormal psychology, marriage and family issues, and lgbt issues, but NOTHING to educate future therapists about eating disorders!

i have since taken it upon myself to make it one of my goals to design a curriculum for a psychology class educating students about eating disorders and how to treat them, and then somehow present this to chapman university.

if anyone has any advice about how to START the process of designing a curriculum/syllabus, please let me know! i’d love some help.

please

i’ve been in recovery for 8 months…i’m not too far away from having a year under my belt and when July 7th rolls around, i want to be proud of the work i’ve done. i mean, i’ll be proud no matter what, but i want to be satisfied with where i am. i want to be able to go to any restaurant without having to do extensive research first…without having to do ANY research at all. i’m pretty much able to go with the flow in every other avenue of my life, so i want the whole food and eating thing to follow suit. i want to have a piece of cheesecake from rutabegorz and not worry about the ramifications :)

8 months is not that long of a time, especially considering i’ve spent three years being actively sick. AND i’m having to change things that have been a part of me for 20 years. its scary being at this stage. i feel so self-centered because i have to think about what im doing/going to do so much. it can be tiring and sometimes its the last thing i want to do, but i think the more i face the fact that i have an eating disorder, the less scary it will be.

being this kind of an addict has a huge stigma, and i think that a large part of my recovery is going to be about figuring out ways to eradicate this stigma in my social/academic circles. this is kind of a part of that.

its going to be great when i can put this goal on my “done” list :)

i want headshots but i have no money AND i dont trust strangers…does anyone have a trusted amateur photographer that does decent head/body shots? they dont need to be great…just decent. i think i’ll deal with hair/makeup/wardrobe myself, so i’m just in need of a photographer. i’m looking for someone who can do photos for acting as well as modeling. please help me!!

go to this website! take care of kitties!

http://www.oc-arc.com/volunteer.htm