laaa




I'm doing 34 things
 

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  1. 1. live simply
    8 entries . 3 cheers
    3,264 people
  2. 2. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
    21 entries . 1 cheer
    7,903 people
  3. 3. pass my exams
    11 entries . 2 cheers
    479 people
  4. 4. become better at small-talk
    2 entries . 2 cheers
    2,032 people
  5. 5. be more outgoing
    2 entries
    2,765 people
  6. 6. be happy
    4 entries . 3 cheers
    24,864 people
  7. 7. Lose 30 pounds
    13 entries
    5,626 people
  8. 8. meditate every day
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    746 people
  9. 9. not be lonely
    2 entries
    123 people
  10. 10. reinvent myself
    8 entries . 1 cheer
    431 people
  11. 11. Become Financially Independent
    5 entries
    6,593 people
  12. 12. not care what other people think of me
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    113 people
  13. 13. Cook one recipe a week
    2 entries . 1 cheer
    4 people
  14. 14. drink more water
    4 entries
    20,256 people
  15. 15. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
    21,508 people
  16. 16. Worry less.
    6 entries . 1 cheer
    4,750 people
  17. 17. be more positive
    4 entries
    2,797 people
  18. 18. re-learn Italian
    31 people
  19. 19. dont put important things off
    11 entries
    1 person
  20. 20. go to an acting class
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    3 people
  21. 21. get a new job
    1 entry
    2,003 people
  22. 22. nail these exams
    1 entry
    1 person
  23. 23. Buy a holiday house
    1 entry
    7 people
  24. 24. control my jealousy
    1 entry
    195 people
  25. 25. list 43 songs that never fail to brighten my day
    3 entries
    35 people
  26. 26. pay it forward
    1 entry
    666 people
  27. 27. smile way more in my day
    1 person
  28. 28. get at least 8 hrs sleep every night
    10 entries
    1 person
  29. 29. stop using facebook as much
    5 entries
    1 person
  30. 30. Put more effort into my appearance
    1 entry
    6 people
  31. 31. Be a better friend
    4 entries
    6,299 people
  32. 32. decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
    1 entry
    7,244 people
  33. 33. stop criticizing myself
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    88 people
  34. 34. stop being so jealous
    1 entry
    177 people

How I did it
How to make more friends
It took me
15 months
It made me
valued


How to pass a subject i hate
It took me
6 months
It made me
feel like a survivor


Recent entries
stop being so jealous
jealous of my boyfriend with my friend

i hate this feeling….i am jealous that my boyfriend likes my friend. i know he thinks she is hot everyone does. i cant even put her down to some stupid bimbo because i know her and she is a lovely girl……......i dont know what to do. i dont want to lose my friendship but honestly i am threatened that he is thinking that he got the wrong girl…..and i feel like i cant measure up. i dont know if we are meant to be together anymore. its annoying because i hate thinking that hes thinking about her. she loves the attention so is a bit more out there and more confident with talking to my boyfriend. i know she doesnt like him at all in that way (shes very pretty) but she still does the flirty eye look at him. its like they are a couple and im in the background. like what the fuck! whats wrong with me?! i cant even tell him how i feel cause i know he will brush it off. i cant tell anyone else cause they will think im some jealous bitch about everyone…but i swear its only her and him that i get jealous over!



control my jealousy
why am i jealous over my boyfriend talking ot my friend?

ive only just realised that i am jealous but its a different kind of jealous its the kind where i start to think…..if he had more confidence he would be with her.

last party we went to was with my friend and i have to admitt i was jealous of him talking to my drop dead stunning single friend half the night. even if i was right there next to him. i felt like i was in the background! like i was watching them play fight and joke around! when he had something to say he would say ‘(her name), listen to this’.....

why do i feel like this? i am not as hot as her and she has everything going for her, and i cant really say a bad word about her because i know she is a beautiful person inside and out and that just makes me feel worse. i cant even say well at least its only the looks. Thats not to say that i dont get attention either from guys, im just a more reserved type and if a guy doesnt seem interested in me, i wont bother chasing at all.

i was angry at him last night and since the party and i cant help but feel this way. all yesterday i hardly heard from him and when i told him i missed him in a msg i didnt even get a reply!
like WTF now that i am writing this i know i am better. i feel better already. Jealousy is not something you can really talk about because i know he even thinks my best friend is hotter than me (and he is always telling me i should dye my hair blonde- (her hair color).

i am me….i usually dont put myself down so much so why am i doing it now? i am better than this!
i know he would never cheat thats not why i am jealous…i am jealous of the thoughts he is probarly having that he isnt with ‘the best for him’.



pass my exams (read all 11 entries…)
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yes! another successful semester! did very well. well done me



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