I’m afraid I’m falling out of love with him (after 3.5 years). I don’t know how… until a week ago I felt magic every time I was with him, but I don’t miss him like I should now that he is gone again. Maybe I’m just getting cold feet, but I am not sure I can really ever be content with him. I’ve never had a problem with feeling committed to him before, and I’ve never been unrealistic in my expectations. Maybe that is the problem. I just don’t know anymore…
ladymaggie's Life List
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1. get out of debt
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2. take a physics class
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3. study botany
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4. Lose 10 pounds
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5. plan my wedding...
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6. teach my boyfriend to dance
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7. graduate from college with a 3.8 GPA
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8. Graduate
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9. get a Brazilian wax
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10. Marry my boyfriend
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11. get married
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12. Get kissed by the ocean
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13. get a professional massage
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14. move away
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15. Get a PhD
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16. Design and build my own house
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17. get a dog
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18. Knit a blanket
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19. Have a baby
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20. Get more piercings
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21. get all the death cab for cutie albums
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22. Finish my Photo Albums
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23. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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24. Learn to tango
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25. Kiss under a waterfall
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26. kiss someone at the top of a ferris wheel
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27. backpack through Europe
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28. Live in another country
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29. become fluent in spanish
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30. Learn Japanese
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31. become a dual citizen
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32. make love in the rain
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33. adopt
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34. Write more thank you notes
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35. learn to write with my left hand
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36. Win at a Magic: The Gathering tournament
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37. decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
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38. ride in a gondola
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39. read all my books
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How I did it: It took lots of phone calls, emails, IMs, and tears... but after three long years we decided to get married, and he's moved into town for graduate school. When he's done next year we're getting married! Read how I did it…
I signed up for a class with my university this fall. Hopefully afterwards I will be confident enough in my skating and passing that I will be able to play drop in with my boyfriend!
A week ago I had my first lesson. It went pretty well, actually. I only stalled twice (once right away trying to drive in 1st, the other trying to pull up at a stop sign so I could see). I’m pretty pleased so far. I only drove around town so I only got up to 3rd, but I heard that is the hard part anyway.
I’ve made this a personal challenge, and I only have a few weeks left to finish it. The only car I will be able to use to visit my boyfriend (long distance relationship… 200 miles apart) is standard so I would really like to learn before he leaves. I’ll be practicing more as soon as I can…
