laivine




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  1. 1. Keep my room clean
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  2. 2. Go to Ireland
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  3. 3. publish my novel
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  4. 4. finish what I start
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  5. 5. stop missing lost people so much.
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  6. 6. go to the gym regularly
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  7. 7. keep epistolary closeness with my friends
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  8. 8. learn gaelic
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  9. 9. actually learn to play my guitar
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  10. 10. collect corsets
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  11. 11. accentuate the positive, deemphasize the negative
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  12. 12. learn about kitchen witchcraft
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  13. 13. say what i mean and mean what i say
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  14. 14. publish a poem properly.
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  15. 15. talk to people I want to meet and know
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  16. 16. make something wearable.
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  17. 17. try to like someone who might like me back
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  18. 18. show my intellect
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  19. 19. write full-time as a profession.
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  20. 20. go to graduate school and get my MFA
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  21. 21. study the Tarot
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  22. 22. promote Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab.
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  23. 23. have a lucid dream
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  24. 24. learn to mix drinks really well
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  25. 25. have energy throughout the day
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  26. 26. deal with my mail when I get it
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  27. 27. publish a piece in 5280
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  28. 28. be more self-confident
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  29. 29. find a job i really love
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  30. 30. re-design my website
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  31. 31. Fill every idea/sketch book I own
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  32. 32. Start reading for pleasure again
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write everyday
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I’m not done doing this – obviously – but I’ve set a goal to write 500 words on something, primarily a journal entry every day for a year and I’m coming up on my second anniversary for this.



stop missing lost people so much. (read all 4 entries…)
The weight of terror is

exactly the weight of realizing that maybe you are fading. And maybe that’s healthy and well.

I scramble to pick you up like dropped marbles, and there’s too much for my hands, to carry in my pockets, keep safe under my tongue. But I can’t bear to leave even one behind.

That glassy shooter. That could be the one I kept the love in.



stop missing lost people so much. (read all 4 entries…)
Gemini

I don’t think this ever stops pulsing.

I don’t think about you much, but all the same, I think that’s only cause I don’t stop thinking of you.

I don’t think about the air, but I’m still breathing it.

Letting you drift from my mind, dissipate into a dust the air can carry away…it’s suffocation, it’s death.

So you’re here, in my pocket. And you’re not doing anything, saying anything profound or novel, not touching my arm with those fingers or implying that thing about that guy from that band was a total lie, not reading a book or smiling or moving…

But all the same, you’re the little thing that keeps me alive.



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