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I have one on my left wrist (it is P.L.U.R. in just normal writing) and I got my second about two weeks ago its the celtic eternity knot it has various meanings and I LOVE IT! it is on my right wrist! I hope you can see it in the picture!

A lot of bad stuff happened to me in 2006 it was by far the worst year of my life! I tried to treat 2007 as a completly new year but everything is just coming back at me. I have turned to drugs again to cope with the constant unhappy feeling. But after I do the drugs I am even more depressed that I resorted to drugs again which leads to me doing it more to get over it. It is just one big cycle. I hate this feeling but I dont think I will ever be happy again it is just too hard to forget about what happened to me.

So this guy that I have had a crush on for the past 3 years is finally single (to bad I have been dating the same guy for 4 years) We almost dated over the summer but I dont know what happened. I want to get really skinny and gorgous in order to kind of shove it in his face, you know “you could have had this but you messed up”. It is sad to say but I would like to date him. Anyway he stresses me out and drives me to food for comfort. I hate this!! Good thing I am leaving on friday to go to the Bahama’s where I can purge as much as I want and just blame it on drinking too much!! I am just so stressed and I feel like I will never reach the goal of 115 I have set for my self!!
I hope every one else is doing well!! Stay strong