I haven’t written on 43Things for a while now. Mainly because there’s been so much going on. I’ve barely been going to the gym – that’s how much my life is changing!
So, lets see if I can start from the beginning.
The month started off pretty normal – working as many shifts as I could, seeing my boyfriend all the time, fitness classes in between. I said here earlier that me and him were hoping to move out, in a place we’d already found. Well, that happened. It was a pretty perfect place – the guy was never around, and we had a small double room for £60 each, a week. It was like having our own house, really. Except having to keep it super clean.
But, then, everything fell apart. My boyfriend is separated, and he decided to go see his wife. This really messed him up. And, boy, did it hurt me. We rushed into the relationship too fast, so he hadn’t had enough time to let go of her.
When he came back, things were mixed. Sometimes I dealt with it really well, and other times I couldn’t handle it. There was a lot of crying, anger, depression…
We got rid of the place we were staying. I went back to my parents’ house for a few days. He went to the Lake District, near where his wife is, to be alone at times, and to finish stuff with her totally. So he would know it couldn’t work between them. This hurt more.
He got four weeks off work for depression, anti-depressants and handed in his notice. I got one week for something like ‘mild situational distress’, and also handed my notice in. We didn’t want to go back to where we knew they were talking about us and judging us. It was the final push I needed to quit.
I then went to Holland to stay with a good friend. This helped a lot. I’ve really been thinking rationally what to do with my life.
No one knew about any of this, except my boyfriend, the friend I mentioned, and my other best friend.
Fulfilling month. Next month will be just as much. The job search continues, seriously considering college (for the first time) in 2009, find somewhere to live, and sort out how being with my boyfriend will work. It’s very complicated… especially with him being Mexican, meaning he’ll get kicked out the country after his divorce!
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