never thought I’d be able to write that but yeah, she is here and eager to explore soooo many things she was denied, and bellydancing is one of them.
will research when/where Fat Chance Bellydance gives lessons, as soon as we get back from PSG. maybe for a birthday :)
lavendersage's Life List
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1. live my envisioned, communal life
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2. build an earthship
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3. know that it's gonna be ok
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4. learn grant-writing
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5. meditate daily
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6. practice pronoia
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7. take your hand without fearing you'll twist my arm
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8. contribute my potato to Life's stone soup
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9. Create income streams
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10. start my own family traditions
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11. connect with people who reflect my values
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12. treat everyone with respect regardless of my opinion of them
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13. cook healthy dinners
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14. start, because I know the muse will come
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15. make love more often
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16. do "the Artist's Way"
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17. ride my bike more
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18. Organize my craft area.
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19. re-order my list here every time i add a new goal
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20. grow an herb garden
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21. keep my kitchen clean
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22. get Audra the job she needs
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23. complete an unfinished project
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24. give Tarot readings
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25. take more photos
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26. learn how to post photos here
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27. make jewelry
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28. paint those wooden spoons i bought
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29. teach a class
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30. write a book and have it published
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31. take a bellydancing class
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32. learn yoga
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33. run my car on biodiesel, or maybe ethanol
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34. see the aurora borealis
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35. Be paid abundantly for doing what I love
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36. nurture my spiritual self
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my long-lost Babygirl is finally home, after a dozen years of aching to be together. we are very good parents, but have not put enough effort into this. we all need the snuggly feeling that family traditions and the memories they generate can give. we played monopoly in the camper one night, laughed til we hurt, had a pizza delivered to us out in the camper (it was parked in the driveway behind the house). we need more family game nights.
is so very hard. too often we have misplaced our trust. it feels so risky to be vulnerable and say “um, hey, I need somebody’s help” or, “can I get some support? it’s going rough for us.”
I am reminded of the time my wife accidentally got the car caught on the train tracks (near a busy Amtrak station, not out in the boonies), and two guys stopped to help. and one wanted to take charge, was trying to direct us to take actions that would have had the car straddling the tracks and I was able to reject help that was UNhelpful. and i got us off those tracks after Mr. Take-Charge left in a huff.
i think needing help feels risky because there is a sort of obligation feeling that you have to accept the help that comes if you call for help. often, even when we don’t know what we need, we know what we do NOT need.
we so struggle with this.
