ldeann7

used to be an avid reader, now i cant find the time but i want to dedicate the time and i am starting with the Bible which is, i believe my 22nd goal, i think.. any way i miss curling up with a good book. the last book i read was “Wicked” i forgot the authors name, but that was a page turner for sure. i read it in about a week…i used to drink up a good book in a day before i got work and school priorities

i had to drop my hbo before the final wire season started, i heard bits and pieces about the series especially from my man but i refuse to hear anything about it so i need to get that on dvd… plus i want to watch all the seasons over again especially season 1 and i think 3 or 4…stringer bell was my baby daddy :) i couldn’t believe dude kilt my baby daddy, so sad

im a 28 year old woman who has been living double and tripple lives…in my social life, i curse like a sailor, i drink, i smoke cigarettes and i sleep with my boyfriend of 4 years…in my family life, i have a crystal clean mouth, they don’t even know i smoke or drink and they would like to believe that my boyfriend and i are not intimate before marriage…i know that they know deep down that i am no angel but they are so judgemental, i don’t let them know anything about myself because they are cruel. of course i don’t need to curse and smoke in front of my mom but the fact that she doesn’t know that i do is my issue, i have friends who are my age whose parents know these things about and don’t care… i am the baby in my family of 6 girls and they are all what i call super christians, i am a christian as well but i am a little back slidden…but i cant be open to them at all, i feel alone. both parts of me are totally me its just that i don’t like the fact that i have to hide my life from my family. oh well this may not make sense but i just wanted to get it off my chest…i have a lot to say to clarify all ive said but i don’t feel like typing it right now… just had to let go of that dilemma