“i look at you and i see my best friend. your energy and your passion inspire me in ways that i never thought possible. your inner beauty is so strong that i no longer fear being myself. i no longer fear at all. i never thought that i could find someone to love that would love me back unconditionally. and then i realized that, although we are often apart, you are always with me. you are my soul mate. you give me purpose when i feel i have none. without you my soul would be empty, my heart broken, my being incomplete. i thank god every day that you were brought into my life. and i thank you for loving me.”
so here’s the thing about you. you get it. you understand. no explanations. no coverups. no lies. just truth. you make me happier than i have ever been in my life. you make me feel complete. like even though i have no idea where i am headed, you are there to take my hand and guide me through whatever i may get myself into. you have taught me what it means to be alive. what it means to live. what it means to feel, again. i look at you and i see love. i touch you and i feel love. i listen to you speak and i hear love. there is no one that can ever compare to you. i have never felt more loved in my life. never felt more special. never felt more whole. but the thing about you is that you are honest. you tell me when i am out of line. you tell me when i am being irrational. but you also tell me how wonderful i am. how amazing i am. how much you care. and i thank god every single day that you were brought into my life. and i thank god i am finally able to love you back.. whole-ly.
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so recently i have been intensely looking into going to africa for a year. there is an internship that was made available to me where i would go and live in africa for an entire year. i’m really looking into it, the only problem is the cost. it’s almost $7000. i mean i could ask my parents for the money, but that would be one more thing they could hold above my head as far as money goes. so i’m not going to resort to that. i have school bills slowly piling up, other bills not getting any smaller, and life is just stressful in general. but for some reason i keep being drawn to this. could 2010 be the year? i have a few more months to think about it and raise money, so for now, it’s still tentative. but i’m going to do it. watch me.
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“and he does something to me that i can’t quite explain only with words. he takes me back to an old, familiar place. he has reintroduced me to myself.”
right now, i am completely smitten. i have found someone in my life who makes everything seem happy. makes the world seem greater, my days seem brighter. he takes me back to a place that i want to stay forever. he makes me happy, he makes me smile, but most of all, he makes me feel like myself again. the me that i thought i lost so long ago. he’s brought that back. i trust him. i know he is not out to hurt me. i know he wants nothing but good for me. i know that he wants me, and only me.
it’s only been 4 months, but it seems like i’ve known him forever. he just does something to me that i feel i cannot put into words. almost like forever doesn’t seem like long enough. his smile lets me know that it’s real. and the way he looks at me lets me know that he would do anything for me. i think i may be on the verge of something huge here. this could be it. this is it.
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