hospital time! we got to mobile infirmary WAY before we were scheduled to be there, but i figured it was better to be early than late. right? the first thing i remember is being taken back to the labor and delivery ward of the hospital. they kept asking me if i needed a wheelchair (with which i eventually got VERY annoyed because i hadn’t been treated like an invalid so far during my pregnancy – so why start now?). when we got to my room it looked like a hotel room. there was a huge television set and a couch and a couple of chairs. the only thing different was the bed (of course it was a hospital-style bed) and the bathroom didn’t have a tub – only a strange looking shower with a chair in it.
anyway. i had to change into one of those beautiful hospital gowns and take my place on the bed. the nurse inserted cervidil to ripen my cervix (because at this point i was not dilated AT ALL). the contractions started IMMEDIATELY thereafter. at first they were only mildly uncomfortable. but it did not take long for them to become harshly unbearable. for the first twelve hours, i went without any pain medication. about every hour the nurse would come in a check me. i was in too much pain to sleep. chris couldn’t sleep because i couldn’t sleep.
around six in the morning on the 19th i was started on pitocin through my IV. the contractions became so strong that i relented and asked for nubain. this helped me for the next 6 hours or so. the contractions were getting stronger and stronger, but i wasn’t dilating hardly at all. i ended up only getting to 2 centimeters in 18 hours of labor. at 11:30 that morning, my nurse (who had spent the past 10 hours with me and was becoming my best friend at that moment) took my hand and said, “darlyn…i know you want to put off having the epidural as long as possible….but you really need to have it done. your contractions are getting harder and harder because of the pitocin and seeing your eyes roll back in your head like that every minute or so is really starting to freak out your husband.”
so i relented again and said okay to the epidural. it took about 20 minutes for the anesthesiologist to get to my room and perform the epidural. it didn’t hurt. amazingly. but i think i was in so much paid with the contractions that it didn’t matter i was having a 20 gauge needle stuck into my spine. it took within minutes and it made ALL THE DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD. no more pain. i could actually have conversations with people that lasted longer than 30 seconds. it was WONDERFUL.
there was a fetal monitor on janie’s head the whole time i was in labor and delivery. they were keeping track of her heart rate, during labor, a baby’s heart rate drops during contractions and then recovers back to the normal rate. at 12:26 the fetal heart monitor showed that janie was in distress. i had a contraction (which i couldn’t even feel then because of the epidural) and janie’s heart rate dropped, but did not recover. (by recover, i mean come back all the way up – her heart was still beating, but at a much slower rate). by the next contraction, her heart rate dropped even lower.
in that moment, i was told that it was time for an emergency c-section.
tears started to flood my eyes. even chris was crying – because he knew how scared i was. i was so glad that i had already had the epidural. because it took about 10 minutes for it to take effect, and now we didn’t have to wait that extra time. janie needed to come out AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. chris and i decided that my mom could be in the operating room with us – for which i am very grateful. because of my mom, i have some wonderful candid photos of janie’s birth (not the surgery) and they turned out beautifully.
janie ann marie was born at 12:36 p.m. on january 19, 2004. she weighed exactly 8 pounds and was 21 inches long. her eyes were dark blue and she didn’t really have that much hair. she mostly looked like a cute little sumo wrestler (i’m sure she will really appreciate that one day). her head was perfectly shaped (since she was born by a c-section, there was no need for forceps or that vacuum-thingy).
because of my gestational diabetes and the insulin dependency, she was born with very low blood sugar. she was kept in the nicu for the first 12 hours of her life on a glucose-iv. that was the ONLY problem with her. actually, that wasn’t even a problem. she was PERFECT.
and most times, she still is.
p.s. the recovery from the c-section wasn’t as bad as i had thought it would be. it wasn’t exactly FUN, but if i have another child, i plan on having another c-section. i promise.