Alexandra Ortegon

It has been 57 days since I have cut. I don’t wanna say I am done with this goal in case i relapse

So I was recently put back into the psychiatric hospital and they prescribed me Prozac. I guess I am feeling a little better than before but I don’t really know. Hopefully this well help a little bit along with the therapy.

well at least not right now. i need to fix it first so that it will be worth more money lol

It’s the happiest place on earth so they say but yes it is . I went this weekend and I realized I have not had that much fun in forever. That place truely makes me happy and best of all i took my niece who just turned three for her first visit and her birthday it was such a wonderful day.

i have decided i dont want to learn this yet so i may take it up again one day but not now

I have been writing so much latley. Yesterday i wrote about 10 pages of just the thoughts in my head. this weekend i wrote about 5 new poems and i think i can finally say i have achieved this goal.

i am working on this one. im not sure if i am getting better yet though. there is a hotline i can call if i get an urge and it helps though not always. so far i have been just trying to keep myself busy and its going good.

i love smiles they are so contagious. i love them from strangers because they fill me with warmth and i have to pass them on. so go share a smile today.

i have told at least 60 people now about this site and my therapists as well so they can pass on the message. i love spreading the word

so i absolutely love this organization for everything. i have bought like 10 shirts from them. i also got a tattoo of the self-injury awareness ribbon and the word love on my left wrist.

I want to tell everyone about them because they are amazing. They help and they believe in what i believe in which is getting better healing and most importantly LOVE. so if you are reading this go check them out. buy a shirt or just tell more people thanks.

Argosy University in Frisco. Although i might have to do my undergrad in general psych then move on up to graduate they are currently the only school i found in Cali that has an emphasis in forensic psych.

i got it pierced like three weeks ago but i wanted to make sure it healed first before i said i did it. its done healed nicely and now i want the other side so that i can have snake bites.

I know exactly what I want now and am starting to design the first one. The first one is going to be my version of one my mothers tattoos. It was her favorite one and I want to redesign it and add a dime facing up b/c it represents someone watching over you from the other side. Its going to be sort of a mermorial for her.

I thought this was going to take a lot of time but there not many episodes i missed. they were mostly from the first season. This was so worth doing. I love the show and I am so happy that now i can say i have seen every episode of degrassi so far.

Destiny is my biggest joy at the moment. She is a beautiful lil two year old. she makes me so proud everyday. she reminds what its like to be innocent and to enjoy the little things in life.Her hugs and laughter always make my day

it was wonderful i was with the one i love at the beach in the middle of the night. this was totally worth doing.

so i watched one of the degrassi marathons this weekend and its going to happen every weekend i guess till the new season starts and i seen 5 episodes that i have not seen before. i wonder how many more untill i have seen them all?

i have read seven more books since the last time i wrote on here and i am starting to believe that i am not going to get this goal accomplished but…......that in no way means i am giving up i mean i have the summer to do nothing but read books.

tis proves to be very frustrating but i did it in two days and it feels great once you have it all dont and togehter that it acutally hurts to take it apart and put it back in the box