I need to start making people earn my trust instead of just opening up too early. I’ve been screwed over and stabbed in the back too many times and never learned my lesson but it stops now.
lessthanthree13's Life List
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1. lose 50 pounds
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2. eat healthier
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3. get rid of anxiety
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4. crochet a blanket
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5. run a mile
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6. get a degree
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7. be a mommy
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8. get a toyger or bengal kitten
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9. save $1000
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10. go to Italy
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11. golf under 100
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12. catch a Ryan Howard home run
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13. watch the Eagles win a Super Bowl
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14. go on a cruise
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15. be like my dad
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16. be a size 8
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17. Send a postcard to Postsecret
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18. get out of debt
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19. visit alaska
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20. feel sexy
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21. fit in THOSE jeans
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22. maintain a healthy weight
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23. hold a baby tiger
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24. Skydive
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25. BE
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26. detox
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27. take a family vacation to Turtle Bay Resort
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28. visit Oia
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29. get a colonic
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30. have a 4.0 gpa
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31. send the kids to college
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32. Win the lottery
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33. read all of Paulo Coelho's books
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34. give away 50 books on BookMooch.com
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35. protect the kids
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36. get pregnant
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37. be a size 10
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38. be a size 12
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39. own my own car
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40. get another stamp in my passport
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41. Walk 3x a week for 4 straight weeks.
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How I did it: Partially just through conscious self-awareness, but the real kick was acupuncture. I feel a clarity and a connection to my own life that I've never had before. Read how I did it…
This weekend we went to see his old band play. I actually teared up in front of my boyfriend during “our song.” It was the first time I’d stayed in the room while they played it in the past 3 years. It hit me all of a sudden that the memories were there, but I had something way better than I ever had with AD sitting right next to me, holding my hand and understanding without jealousy why I got choked up. I realized that by facing the memories and staring them down, when I turned around to walk away, they didn’t follow me.
I saw his picture the next day and there was nothing there. Not sadness, not anger, not hurt, nothing. It’s like I don’t even know him, or want to. He just doesn’t exist in my life anymore, and I’m happier for it.
I’m starting this goal at 185. My long term goal is 50, although I think I’d like to be at about 120, in all honesty. I guess we’ll see how it goes and decide when I get to 135.
Thank god for fitday.com because seeing exactly what I’m eating and watching that little orange section jump up at fat is REALLY making me accountable for my food decisions.
