lexie07

It is so strange how this past school yeat has gone. My first year of college has had so many different experiences some good some not so good. I meet a boy fell for him hard. He lied to me and hurt me. Im working on getting over it. I really did care about him. I dont understand why he didnt care about me. I made amazing new friends who I can talk to about anything. I’ve tried some things I never thought I’d do. I’ve drank and had a good time with my friends while drinking. I have so many new memories that I could have never imagined. I’m going to miss everything so much this summer that it just makes me sad. I just am so glad that happiness has finally become a everyday thing for me. In high school I was worried that I never would be able to be actually happy with my life. But I now know that happiness is what you make it and to be happy you have to be yourself and even allow yourself to let others in and be hurt and eventually you will find happiness within yourself…

Well since the last time I wrote about being happy a lot has changed in my life. The boy ended up not being a winner. My roommate ended up being right. And I ended up hurt by him. I’m okay now it didnt take too long to get over it well mostly. I don’t like seeing him or anything, but I’ve made some really good new friends that I wouldn’t have made if things wouldn’t have ended with him. I’ve found a smarter, nicer, better looking guy that I’ve kind of had a thing with but I’m not sure whats going to happen with that… I guess we’ll just have to wait and see. Im so happy with my friends that I have made and I am sad that the semester is almost over and I won’t get to see them everyday anymore. But next semester will be even better then the last two have been. I happy that I’ve been able to change the things I wanted to change about myself and I think I’m becoming a better person. I’ve realized that no one is happy all the time and that its okay to be upset but if you spend you’re time unhappy and don’t try to be happy you won’t ever be happy. Knowing what you want is okay I know that if you never say what you want you won’t get it. Saying how you feel no matter what it is, is important. Holding emotions in just frusterates you and confuses the hell out of other people. -Say what you mean and mean what you say- Such an old quote but a good one. Be excited about the future and not knowing what could happen. Be happy about your friends and family love them. Be a better you. And most of all smile :) you don’t know who’s day you could make completely better.

Well I’ve been working at being happier then I normally am and so far so good. Im enjoying the little things and just trying to find out what actually makes me happy. I like just feeling better about myself and feeling like I am actually happy. The only thing that would make it better would be if summer were here. Its been cold and snowy for what seems like an eternity now and that makes me not so happy but what can you do about it? not a thing. So I’ve come to terms that living in ND its going to be bitter cold 7 months out of the year and I just have to enjoy those 5 months of nice weather more. And to summer I can’t wait for you to get here!