lh0pitalrules

I’m eighteen, and I think about this one a lot. Since I was 12 I have been obsessing over this guy or that, and now I realize that the right man will come around, and that this is not something I need worry about. I’ve met a lot of great guys and a lot of bad ones, and I will get hurt again, but I refuse to get hurt over the same things again.

Recently I met this guy that changed my whole perspective. I realized that conversing is really the key. The guy thats right for you treats you like you’re perfect for them. And you can just be with him, and not worry about a thing.

That guy comes around every once in a while. Its sad but I wish I had met him a few years down the road. He lives an hour and a half away and I’m still getting my life together. If it’s meant to be it will be, but it probably won’t be, right?

I hope it works out between us someday, but if it doesn’t it’s fine, because love is not a one time deal. It does not discriminate in who it touches, and you do not love just once.

I will be glad to have him as a close friend, and I’m happy that he is in my life. But we shall we… and I am hopeful. :D

After getting really angry with JK Rowling for killing off Sirius and making HP to be teen in angst, I finally grit my teeth and read the 6th book. I was sooo enraptured by it!! It’s official guys, I’ve caught the harry potter bug. This goal is practically done, because I am totally waiting for the 7th book to come out.

I am much less emotionally dependent on people, nowadays. For one, I don’t find myself calling the same people over and over again, bitching, complaining and extorting support. But I am far from reaching this goal. I am still very much financially dependent, but I am working on finding a job.

I have also begun to trust myself a lot more, and be happy, by myself, and with myself. I take better care of my self, and pay more attention to my needs, before I have a breakdown.