I’m not going to be a quitter- but I think that upon reflection, two weeks to finish a portfolio from scratch was a bit ambitious. I didn’t take into account how much time everyday things take up. The good news is that the design assistant at work and I are going to work on this together. That is a good motivator when you have a partner to cheer you on.
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2. become more disciplined
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3. Believe in myself
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4. Worry less.
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5. be inspired
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6. Be well paid for work that I enjoy
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7. Stop watching TV
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8. see the beauty in everything
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9. be more generous
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10. love life
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11. have more patience
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12. Find my path in life
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13. stop procrastinating
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14. be more creative
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15. Make new friends
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16. be completely independent
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17. travel the world
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18. drink more water
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19. talk to strangers
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20. use my time more wisely
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21. Stop Passing Up Opportunities
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22. find inner peace
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23. Get a tattoo
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24. be a millionaire by 30
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25. be a famous fashion designer
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26. Listen to my heart and not my head
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27. lose weight
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28. go home again
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29. be passionate about life
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30. Get organized and Stay organized!
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31. Start my own business
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32. live in london
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33. Find a great, affordable apartment below 14th St. in NYC
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34. learn to swim
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35. write a book and have it published
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36. stop worrying about what other people think
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37. Buy a House
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38. Own an Aston Martin Vanquish (V12)
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39. Swim with dolphins
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41. meditate more
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I have just come to the conclusion that the root of my problems is lack of disipline. I let fear and procrastination override my own good sense of what I need to do to get where I want to be. The lack of disipline in my life has lead me to be unhappy, ungrounded and generally disorganized.
I’m not proud of any accomplishments, because there haven’t been any in recent memory. From today forward, I’m going to focus of exerting disipline over my own actions and thoughs. I am responsible for creating everything in my life, and I want the most awesome joyous life I can have.
Therefore, I’m going to conquer self-doubt by exerting my self disipline in all areas of my life- I will complete my portfolio, get an awesome design job, and have faith that I can create all of this. I will stop wallowing in guilt and fear and start taking charge of my own actions and thoughts.
I graduated in 2002 with a degree in Fashion Design. I knew that I was going to move soon, so I didn’t finish. It’s 2007 and I’m still not finished. I have been saying to myself for three years now that I need to finish this. I’ve started and stopped about 4 times- never actually finishing anything worthwhile. The time is now. I either want to be a fashion designer or I don’t. If I am going to get a job, I need this portfolio finished.
I set myself the challenge to finish this in 2 weeks- the consequence to not finishing is that I will stop telling people that I am going to be fashion designer. I live in NYC, and if I can’t get myself motivated to do this here, I won’t do it anywhere.
A friend pointed out to me that either this is a dream or a wish. If it’s truely a dream, nothing will stop me-even my own doubts.
So, like Don Quixote, I have made this Portfolio thing into something much larger than it should be. It’s not. I know this. It’s a book with the work that I can do and have done-nothing insurmountable, right?
