librarunnr

Feeling better today. I’ve had a few cravings – seeing the jelly jar in my fridge made me want a pb & j sandwich so bad – but nothing that I can’t handle so far. I’m worried about this weekend. My family is thinking about a trip to the Chinese buffet, and I am trying to strategize how I will handle it. I’m thinking I will refuse the buffet and just order off the menu. I’ll have to look up what I should order…
Like yesterday, the only sugar I’ve had was in my smoothie (4 oz soy milk = 2 g sugar), and 1/3 cup of barley at lunch (less than 1 g sugar). These were deliberate choices on my part because of what I have on hand right now. I am still pleased with today.
Amazingly, I went another day with no diet soda. I’m stunned. I was afraid I would turn to sugar substitutes to get me through this, so I deliberately went off diet soda. I didn’t know that I would actually be successful at it. Huh, what do you know.

My success today has been that I have had no diet soda. I know, it doesn’t contain sugar, so why is that a success? It’s probably the first day I’ve gone without a diet soda in years.
Today I had 4 oz of soy milk (evaporated cane juice) and 1 tbs of soy sauce (corn syrup). I did eat about 1/3 cup of barley, and wikipedia says it has 0.8 g of sugar per 100 grams. Otherwise, no sugar!
I love to cook. Love. It. All I can think about is what I am going to be cooking over the next week that will fit within this goal…
I feel good about today, just tired (ok, and a little cranky).

I have been running now for 3 years. I lost about 35 pounds over the course of the first year. I maintained that loss for about a year, but over the third year (since fall 2008) my weight has been gradually creeping back up. This has caused me to feel worse about myself and to feel ‘bad in my skin’. I can actually feel the extra weight on my frame, and I don’t like it.
I don’t want to view running as a ‘have to’ chore. I want to have a positive view of running. So, rather than tying running to weight loss, I want to remind myself why I started it in the first place – for ‘me’ time – and why I kept doing it – because it made me feel so good.