i won’t lie if a bird flies near me i will still be kind of scared..
but i dont let this fear overwhelm me like i used to. i think its just coming to terms that i don’t have to be attached by any fear. if i just let it go and remain calmed and balanced on a daily basis, nothing has a reason to scare me.
it aslo helped by realizing that a part of me thinks birds are beautiful. many people believe they are the closest animal to heaven. while i dont believe in heaven, i do believe these animals are spiritual. and they have a freedom, intelligence and grace about them. ultimately, they reach for the sky; which is something i think every human should aspire to do.
thats why i got a tattoo of a bird on my side. another thing i was scared to do, and looking at it everyday reminds me to face my fears, listen to my intuition and always reach for the sky!
Mar 26, 2007, 07:23PM PDT | 3 cheers | 6 comments
i feel tired all the time =( ever since i was a child ive had this problem. its like a vicious cycle. i used to have really bad dreams when i was younger, so i would stay awake all night. it developed into a bit of a habit. before i should be sleeping is the only time i feel energized. 12 am hits and im fucking wired and cant sleep! meanwhile during the day im walking around like a zombie. but sometimes i don’t mind being such a vampire.. being alert at such late hours really opens up my creativity.
i think maybe if i had more consistent sleeping, eating, and excersizing habits, it would help. i tend to be very inconsistent in all of those areas.
Mar 26, 2007, 06:58PM PDT | 0 comments
i found this really cute book at borders for only 2.99! its called london: portrait of a city and has tons of beautiful pictures of spots/ buildings in london. i cut out all the pictures and am putting them up on my closet doors. doing this is making me want to go to london so badly, it seems so rich in culture. im not finished yet because i ran out of double-sided tape.. but heres a picture of part of it=P
i also bought a book with art from dali, who is one of my favorite artists, and im gonna put a few of those up on the wall.
im not sure what else i want to do to my room..
Mar 26, 2007, 06:27PM PDT | 2 cheers | 0 comments
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