I close my eyes and there is light but why arent’ the stars out when they open to darkness?
light mill's Life List
1. I want to be a better human being
2. lose weight and keep it off
3. be happy
4. never lose hope
5. get a job
6. Read more books
7. To keep good memories and someone in a happy place in the past.
8. Make new friends
10. Ask Forgiveness and Forgive
How I did it: Guess i have always loved my family. But sometimes we start taking things, circumstances people for granted. It may be knowingly or unknowingly maybe the fear of showing your weak emotional side we do not show gratification but its really important. Sometimes even instant gratification works. So i loved my family even more by being more grateful… for small and big stuff and returning the favours by not making it obvious that i was doing s… Read how I did it…
I start and ask forgiveness first and foremost from my mother.
Mother , plz forgive me for being an ungrateful kid.Plz forgive me as i did not heed to all those scarifices that u did and continue to do for me, i know u still see me as a kid and i always judge you, plz forgive me for all the times i have hurt your heart, everytime i didnt’ listen to u, each time i did opposite of what i was told, every time i wasted food, each and every penny i splurged and as a kid even stole from your purse which might be a petty amount still it was theft, i ask forgiveness for the time not spent with you when i was a rebellious teenager, i ask forgiveness for every bad word i mouthed even if i never meant it, i ask forgiveness for not listening to you and regretting later, i ask forgiveness that i couldnt’ understand your experience, i ask forgiveness for not helping around and now when i am grown up u still help me.
Mother however good and responsible i become and how a good human being i might become but i will always be your sinner as i hurt you a lot as i grew up and now i still am troublesome in my own mature way.
I promise to try and become a better kid to you whom you might look upto and be happy and proud in my company, i promise to try and not judge every word you say and be patient with you as you were and are with me after all these years.
I love you and wish that my life years to be added in yours so i can be a little worthy of you.