lilmontanagrl

Well I woke up this morning and did my fasting glucose and it was 213. I felt horrible. I have got to start taking care of myself. I have been in denial now for long time. I realize that this will kill me if I dont get some help and start taking care of myself. I am having a hard time where to start…I dont have any medical insurance right now and I am scared of the costs of care…another reason I dont feel like addressing this…I am so frustrated, depressed and feeling aweful, my spouse is very concerned and wants to help me get this in control. I am going to take it one day at a time…is all I need to focus on. We are walking every week night, and I am taking meds. I need to check my sugar more often, eat healthier, and disapline myself to structure all things in my life. With the grace of God and the help of my husband I should be able to do this. Take baby steps is going to be the start.

I am borderline diabetic. I have been for about 3 years…during that time I went to classes through hospital. I started out good but have totally gotten off track. Thing is I suffer from depression and is hard to manage…add being diabetes and denial equals bad health habits. I am tired most all the time. Feel miserable all the time. I have totally stopped my tests and now my meds. My husband switched jobs and we no longer have medical insurance with his new job. He makes good money but we still struggle financially, he wants me to go to work so we can get medical benefits. So that adds to my stress level. I also have a mentally handicapped daughter that also adds to my emotional load. So days I hardly can get out of bed. I just feel like closing the book to all of this…sad I know…whats worse…to give up…or live on…I know I really need help and dont know where to start. Please help…anyone who can offer advice…I have been trying but is so easy to give up…. I am very sad.

april 26, I am a good friend!