lily85

It’s always worse…I would sewing my fuck mouth…I would find the strength to stop eating…fuck fuck!!!!...I can’t see my body so…fat…oh my god I hate me and I cursed the day I started to eat again…I was so pretty…I was so damn thin…ok ok….I don’t want to weight 86 lbs yet, but last year I was 114.6…wonderful!!!...ok…now I’m 176…oh my god…I’m ashamed to write it only…I hate my body…but I can get my goal…now I would get 143.3…It will be a start, won’t it??I’m 5.77 tall…I could look nice…but my last goal is 121.2lbs….
WILL OUR HEROINE GET HER PERSONAL GOAL LIFE???...

help me please, lily

...today it’s raining day…uff!!
yesterday
b-none
L-white rice yogurt (180kcal)
D-the same and cherries (200kcal)

intake
380kcal

outtake
exercise 140kcal

tot kcal intake 240kcal more or less

Today
B-none
L-4 slices of rusks with 8 g of marmalade (oranges)(158.5kcal [136kcal for rusks and 22.5 for marmalade])

I don’t know what I’ll eat this evening…

I’m not clom on the scale…I fear of it!...I think I’ll clim on it mext…uhhhh…tuesday…ok!!

I feel a bit down…
kiss to everyone,
lily

I’m just gone back home…I worked til midnight and then I went to my bf…we’ve watched CSI…before going to him, I went to Mc donalds’ to take him cheesburger (3 of them)...
watch him while eating makes me feel good…and it happends every time I see someone while eating…in particular while eating fat food like those…

well…

today it’s been a better day…
I woke up late and so I coulnt do my exercise…but I ate very few…
B-none
L-a yogurt with chocolate and rice (188kcal)
D-one peach and cherries (about 79kcal)
before going back to work I drank a very little glass of liquorice vodka…it’s so good…and then it’s a natural laxative…I think it’s 66 kcal…I dont’ drink often…and when I drink I prefer beer!!!I like beer;)

so…this’s been my day…I hope tomorrow will be a better day…

see you soon, good night everyone, kiss lily