linzalee

Its pretty funny to read all of my old entries, because I have consistently been trying to lose the same 20-30 pounds for the past 4 or so years. “I KNOW I CAN DO THIS” yaaaa theres definitely a difference between can and WILL.

So I go to college soon, like 10 months or so. Itd be awesome if I could be in really good shape, at my goal weight 127(yes I know its just a number, but its a number that means a lot to me psychologically). Then, if I gained 5 pounds due to college escapades, that would probably be okay with me as long as I never got back within 15 pounds of where I am now at 152ish.

See, I carry my weight really well. It must be my bones to an extent because I really am not fat at all. I wear a size 27 jeans and can squeeze into some size 4 dresses (my boobs are usually the only issue). I’d like to look like jessica alba does in into the blue, through running and pilates (i know i am capable of it I just have to put in the effort).

Once I start running again regularly (and I have even found a workout buddy to run with me), I should be able to lose about 5-7 pounds a month depending on how well I eat. Since winter formal is at the end of january, itd be lovely if I could have lost almost 15 pounds by then. It is doable, I just have to keep myself busy so that I don’t snack too much, and work out regularly.

The last 10 pounds will be much, much harder, and depending on how I look/feel after I’ve lost 15, I’ll decide how much more I want to lose. I want to feel small and girly for once in my life. I’m okay with my height and occasionally size, but I really want to be smaller so that when I go to college to reinvent my life, I can even look like a different person. Wish me luck xoxo

Well, according to the scale at my doctor’s office, I’m 152 now. Which works for me, I suppose. I think if I lost like 15 pounds more, I could be happy at 137. (Someday I’d love to be 127, as that is my goal, but that would probably jeopardize my boobs and butt too much.) I’m focusing on eating right for the moment, and not eating too much. After finals are over, I’m going to start doing real workouts again, with long-distance running, HIIT training, and some lifting thrown in the mix.

I’m focusing on getting lean, and getting to the point where I can look in the mirror and be satisfied with what I see. The point where I can be photogenic in beach pictures. The point where I can be considered both slim, yet still with my famous curves. I carry my extra weight really well, like most people would never guess that I weight what I weigh. But I’m tired of being the slightly thicker girl.

Hopefully by spring break I will be the thinner version of myself that I’ve always wanted to be. If I go easy enough on myself, and not kill myself with super intense workouts on starvation diets, I should be able to lose 15 pounds. Maybe even 20. I have 3.5 months. I have no doubt that I am capable of doing this.

1. Be the person that I’ve always wanted to be.

2. Do 100 sit-ups and 50 man-pushups every morning.

3. Lose 25 pounds before I turn 17.

4. And …

5. Successfully complete the 10-day lemonade diet.

6. Keep my room clean, because it helps me stay unstressed.

7. Read more books that are just for fun.

8. Get in great shape and eat healthily.

9. Learn to actually save money, and not spend everything I have on random clothes I don’t need.

10. Get my candy striper dress hemmed to above my knees.

11. GO to prom, with or without a date.

12. GO to winter formal, with or without a date.

13. Run 3 or more miles a day, 5 days a week.

14. Do yoga or Pilates 3 days a week.

15. Get over B, because he’s just not that into me.

16. Get a fantastic tan, and lose the pasty winter look.

17. Get fantastic grades, AP scores, ACT, SAT and SAT 2 scores.

18. Intensify my social and romantic life.

19. Grow my hair out really long.

20. Go to a real party on Halloween and on New Year’s.

21. Have flat abs and sexy legs by my 17th birthday.

22. Buy 3 pairs of designer jeans and rock them.

23. Spend more time in the sunshine.

24. Use lemon juice to highlight my hair.

25. Carpe diem it every single day.

If you’ve actually read all of these, props to you for your patience! I am not requiring myself to complete every single one of these goals, and many of them are already my 43 things goals, but these are my 2009 goals. I just need to complete as many of these goals as I possibly can. Some are easy, others are harder, but if I can complete even just one of them by next year, that will be an accomplishment. If I can complete ALL of them, that will be a miracle. But it doesn’t matter how many I do, but that I actually make an attempt to do them.