lisaloo

well…. yesterday i was at a cafe and when we ordered i just ordered a fruit frapa but they didnt have all the ingredents so i had to have a smoothie and that was a big step, and a chocolate was there and i ate it!!!! then thhat night i ate a other one , now i feel so bad and i ate heaps today and now im scared i will get way to fat and arhhh i am full stressing out!! i will never be happy . i tryed to throw up today but it didnt work. i dont understand y it didnt work.

i believe i can get through my struggle with anoreixa and i am trying so hard to stick to my meal plans , some times i have extras because i want to be happy asnd get on with my life, but after i do i feel worse for eating. i just wish there was a tablet and bam i am well again and mainly happy and happy with who i am. theres this girl at skool and shes got blonde hair shes in yr 10 and when she came into our area all the boys all over around her, i wish that happened to me

i wish i could have a guy who loves me for me, never cheats never pressures me into anything i didnt want o do or abuses me mental and physicaly but every guy is the same that i meet, i dont understand y i get these people i have only had one bf who has pressured me and hurt me but all the rest never turned out.