lizamarie217

i want to finish school so i can provide for my family and raise my self esteem level i also want to put my family first so we can be one again

when i am using i wont even look at myself im too scared at what ill see. and because of this i have lost my love for myself and if you cant love yourself you cant love others or let any one love you either i want to fix my perception about myself so i can love and be loved once again.

ive snorted coke for almost 8 yrs on a weekly and sometimes daily basis. the things i have lost because of my addiction have caused me to realize that it is time to stop before it is my life i will lose. it’s hard i haven’t used since the 11 of march and this has probably been the longest sober period in my life in over 4 years everyday i want to go buy some but some how everyday i dont and sometimes i’m mad about it and other times im happy i didnt get any. i know the battle is just beginning and it will get easier with time.