I was, but not for him. I started it up again with an old flame, one who had caused me a lot of anguish at one point, but we talked about it before getting involved, it was all so deliberate…too deliberate, maybe. I fell desperately for him, and I know his feelings were strong too for a while..but our stubbornnesses are equal and if not opposite, certainly different enough to cause major problems. 5 months after a blissful start I was single once more, and two months after that I’m still letting go. I’ve got to somehow learn what “emotionally ready” feels like..or just not get involved! Sounds so depressing! – I do believe however that once I’m not thinking about him like this anymore, the spontaneity necessary for a new love will be possible again:)
liz's Life List
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1. take responsibility for my health
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2. increase my awareness but not to the point of obsession
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3. know my limits and respect them
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4. start playing music again
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5. Have one Internet-free morning a week
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6. finish my homework
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7. be a better daughter
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8. watch the sunrise once a month
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9. make friends
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10. volunteer my time
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11. Live in gratitude & be happy even if the rest of the things on this list never happen
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12. learn to sail
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13. meditate more
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14. take myself out for dinner
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15. expect less
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16. find new things to do in my city
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17. be more generous
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18. buy organic and local
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19. hike through the UK
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20. get a tattoo
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21. be a better knitter
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22. do yoga every day
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23. Finish what I start
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24. learn another language
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25. find my own style
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26. Live happily ever after
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27. hike the appalachian trail
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28. tag all my entries so i know my balance
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29. resist the urge to get seriously involved before i'm emotionally ready
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30. check in with 43things once a week
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31. consolidate my goals into concrete doable things
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32. learn my heart's language and communicate with it regularly
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33. learn to kayak
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34. keep things in perspective
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35. continue to love studying hebrew
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Recent entries
damn
2 years ago
I think volunteering counts!
2 years ago
Someday I’ll work a whole season (or more) again, but once weekly is filling that void for me at the moment.
this seems to be a very hard task for me
2 years ago
when i’m running regularly it’s fine, but if i stop for anything – sickness, a visit, anything...it’s over until I decide to start the whole thing again. Maybe perceiving it as a “whole thing” is part of the problem…?
