i was engaged, but he asked for the ring back tonight. i met this guy, and i really loved him alot, but he chose to break up with me and end things today. and it really breaks my heart that it happened. i thought he would be my someone for forever…. :(
i havent always been a good friend or even known how to be a friend. but im trying every day to be a better person and maybe someday i would be the person the people in my lives deserve
since i last wrote, ive lost maybe almost 40 pounds since my ex asked for a divorce. i fit into 18s but not all 18s. another 10 pounds and all my 18s will fit me then another 10-15 pounds id be in 16s. my goal size is a size 14. i wonder if i will get there ever?
11. i just drank a can of coke zero
12. my cats name is satine
13. im in love
14. i like white roses with pink tips
15. i love roses in general
16. i have the ugliest feet ive ever seen lol
17. im catholic
18. im still in my pjs havent showered yet today (theyre these pink stripey pajama pants and button down shirt lol)
19. im almost at the 40 pound weight loss mark
20. im a natural redhead
i bought seasons 1 and 2 at the local used store and season 3 off of ebay so ive been watching season 1. its nice to watch all the episodes in order and see how the charecters personalities develope and how they interact with one another.
im meeting my fathers gf gayle today. shes from florida and is over in vermont visiting a friend so im going to meet her at friendlys at one today.
so my sons father and his fathers father are the main male role models in his life as he lives wit h them. well there also the biggest pervs out there. and they dont have the common sense not to say things around a 4 year old. so yesterday i had my visit with my son and he said something out of the blue. so we were all playing with the ball with glenn at the campground and glenn walked up to my sister paula and said “we dont talk about pussy anymore” and we all thought we misheard him so had him repeat it. well we thought wrong it was what we heard! kids say the darndest things! i guess all i could say is if your a parent and you dont want your ex to hear what you talk about dont say it in front of your child! lol
i got up to a size 24 which was an eek moment for me. since my husband had asked for a divorce ive been loosing weight. i can squeeze into size 20s now. id still like to get to this goal of a size 16. not for weight purposes so much as i fealt better about myself at that size. and then id like to make the new goal of a size 14. but i know its hard for me to get smaller without going back to the bulemic behaviors so i wont even try.
when i was pregnant for my daughter my son was a year old. i would tell him mommy has a baby in there. well one day he decided he wanted to feed the baby so he lifted my shirt abit and put his bottle in my belly button to feed the baby lol
i had my 4 wisdoms removed a couple weeks ago now i need to get my crooked tooth taken out and a fake put in and a good cleaning and whitning
1. i am in recovery from alcohol
2. my underwear are pink today
3. i just planted 2 bleeding hearts outside my house
4. i want something to snack on now lol
5. i had scallops for lunch today
6. glenn and i threw sticks in the water saturday
7. i used to sing in the church choir
8. i took french in high school and college
9. my bathroom has alot of pink in it
10. i just moved a week ago
when my son glenn was a baby he was breastfed. well his father would say glenns hungry for a boob as a joke all the time. next thing you know i was grocery shopping in price chopper one day (this was 4 years ago) and glenn was hungry and i kept trying to give him a bottle. well hed push it away and say a boob a mama boob and he kept repeating it. man did my face go red and the ugly looks people gave me!
ive been single for a couple of months now and a goal of mine is to get a divorce from my ex, my husband. he had called me over a month ago and told me he wanted out of the marriage and to go file the divorce paperwork. so ive got legal aide willing to help me and it turns out he went into the house i was living in that he had left and took my pre divorce paperwork the lawyer sent me! and here i am looking for it the past week and he called yesterday saying he took it! some people can be impossible to deal with. so now i need to get ahold of the lawyer and get a new packet to fill out for them. its just extra time extra drama and even more proof to me that i need his crazy ass out of my life asap!
ive got an na sponser now and an aa sponser. conifer park should be finishing up with me soon. then life in recovery goes on one day at a time.
im going to change this goal to a i give up because apparently im not going to be able to get her back. the judge ordered the psych eval and the psych eval came back that with my past histpry of being raped and abused that i have too mkuch trauma work to take care of my daughter in the foreseeable future. any kind words and support id appreciate. thanks.:(
my father came up from georgia with my aunt from tennessee to support her and i for her trying to get custody of my daughter. it was the first time i had seen him in 13 years! youd think it would have been awkward but it really wasnt. i found out that i have an older brother out there too.my sister in georgia is getting married this year. and my brother in georgia is doing well in school and going to go to college afterwards.
i lvoe watching this season so you think you can dace. it amazes me some of the things people are able to do and i wish i could just do one little part of what theyre capable of!
