I'm doing 43 things
As much as I desire marriage in my life, I don’t think it should be the driving goal, I don’t think it should be a mark on the check list of success.
The things we do with our lives are important, as are the things we do them with, and I think that some of us in this world are destined for great things, things that it would be difficult to prepare for (and possibly even to accomplish) with the restrictions that marriage would place on you.
It would not be fair to either partner to neglect them for one’s work and would only cause longer sadness if a marriage were forced to endure such a thing.
It is for this reason that I don’t know for certain if I will be married, as right now my work can best be done with total freedom of time and location.
Which is the reason I need to work on being better at being alone. I think I suffer the same troubles as many people, that when I am not seeing someone, I would like to be dating someone. It feels good to have that level of intimidate support when things are not going well, or when things are it is good to have someone to share your joy with.
I just fear that it would be more damaging to someone to love a person only to have them need to fly to some distant country, or even the opposite corner of their own.
It’s difficult to be alone, but if the greater good is served by it, it is a pain that must be endured.
