llamaspit1993

I’m always making excuses for myself. Why i don’t want to do things, why i do want to do things. I barely ever say exactly why i do or do not want to participate in things. I think part of the problem is how my friends react to me not wanting to go out every night, or always hang out. I need to relax a lot of the time, it’s how i am, but my friends look at me like this party animal. I always make up things for why i can’t hangout, and they’ve been known to backfire on me. From now on i’m saying why i don’t want to do things. Not making lame excuses for myself.

I am how i am, and i guess that makes me part of who i am, but i have no idea where i stand on a lot of things, like : Music, religion, where i stand on important subjects. I realize that i can be how i want, but i’m not sure what that is, im not sure how i want to be. I’m not on a search to find myself, i’m on a search to create the person i want to be, the figure out what i like, and then to like it.