loralost

its so hard for me to be alone, i have no friends and one i did we arent no longer.. i cry alot, i sleep alot, i have no life, no job and only good thing i got going is my 2 daughters 8 and 4 but adult friendship would be nice.

I AM A MOTHER OF 2 GIRLS, ONCE WAS SINGLE WENT THREW A HARD SEPERATION AND FELL IN LOVE WITH MY EX BOYFRIEND WE BOTH JUST BUTTED HEADS WAY WAY TO MUCH. SO FINELY LET HIM GO. MY LONG LOST BEST FRIEND FROM MIDDLE SCHOOL POORS HIS HEART OUT TO ME .. I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM SO HANDSOM SO OUT GOING SO HARD ASS, BLUNT AND TROUBLE MAKER. WE COME FROM DIFFRENT BACK GROUNDS, BUT HE TRYS SO HARD TO MAKE ME HAPPY. I AM HAPPY WITH HIM BECAUSE HE IS ALWAYS PERFECT.. BUT MY PROBLEM IS THIS. I CAN’T STOP PUSHING HIM AWAY. WE LIVE TOGETHER, WE BEEN DATEING A YEAR GONNA GET MARRIED BUT EVERY TIME OUR RELATIONSHIP GETS HARD, HARSH WORDS, NOT SPENDING MUCH TIME TOGETHER, I JUST WANNA SAY I WANNA BREAK UP, THIS ISNT WORKING, I CAN’T DO THIS. I FEEL IF SOMETHING DONT GO MY WAY OR FEEL RIGHT I RUN AWAY AND PUSH AWAY GOOD PEOPLE. I DO THIS OVER AND OVER AND THEY LOVE ME SO MUCH. THEY SHOW IT, TELL IT GIVE IT.. AND ITS ME THAT JUST WALKS AWAY. WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME? I WANT TO BREAK UP EVERY 2 WEEKS, BUT OVER STUPID SHIT. I GET IN A RELATIONSHIP PROBLEM, I WANNA JUST THROW IT ALL WAY.