I’ve been quite happy since the friday just gone, despite several bad things slotting themselves inbetween, such as a potentual speeding ticket which will keep me anxious for a couple of weeks untill I am certain if I was caught or not, lack of motivation with my work, amoung a couple of other things.
I don’t know, but I had a revelation this evening that at the moment I just feel so happy, and I havent felt that way in so long.
Feb 01, 12:47PM PST | 3 cheers | 2 comments
I don’t help myself, I see things which aren’t there and read too much into things. I…expect people to treat me bad or trying to distance themselves from me so I’ll clutch at straws to try and stop it which has the complete opposite effect.
I drag things out. If something has happened I’ll make the process much more painful for myself; rather than just dropping it or letting it go as just one of those things like most normal people I’ll torment myself by trying to come up with why it happened, or what I should have done differently to stop it happening in the first place. I always see it as my fault when actually, writing this, perhaps it isn’t me – perhaps it’s them with the issues. That said, it doesn’t make things easier.
Jan 01, 01:41PM PST | 0 comments
Today has been a low day.
Maybe because last night turned out to be pretty crap, maybe it’s because I’m tired, maybe it’s because I have so much to do in the next 2 days and no time to do it in, maybe it’s because people turn out to be someone different to who I thought and act in strange and hurtfull ways towards me, maybe it’s because I’m no better.
Jan 01, 11:07AM PST | 1 comment