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commit suicide (read all 2 entries…)
i wrote this maybe it will help someone 2 years ago

You can keep on going
Or you can give up
You can keep on crying
Or you can chin up
You can keep on dying, dying inside
Or you can fight for your life
It’s up to you what you do
It’s up to you what you make of your life
Decisions decsisions
Where to go when the feelings lost
When no one1 cares any more
You can listen to your own voice
When days dry grim
You can still hang in
So much time has gone past
So many things have been lost
But
it’s up to you what you do
It’s up to you what you make of your life
Decision decisions
Where to go when the feelings lost
Your at the bottom now hanging on the edge do you jump or do you not
Why not stand tall and fight some more
Maybe it’s just to hard
Don’t give in keep on going
You can make it when no one else believes in you
Have faith my dear your heart is near
it’s up to you what you do
It’s up to you what you make of your life
Decision decisions
Where to go when the feelings lost
You turn and smile and hold on with faith



get help (read all 2 entries…)
i wrote this maybe it will help someone 2 years ago

You can keep on going
Or you can give up
You can keep on crying
Or you can chin up
You can keep on dying, dying inside
Or you can fight for your life
It’s up to you what you do
It’s up to you what you make of your life
Decisions decsisions
Where to go when the feelings lost
When no one1 cares any more
You can listen to your own voice
When days dry grim
You can still hang in
So much time has gone past
So many things have been lost
But
it’s up to you what you do
It’s up to you what you make of your life
Decision decisions
Where to go when the feelings lost
Your at the bottom now hanging on the edge do you jump or do you not
Why not stand tall and fight some more
Maybe it’s just to hard
Don’t give in keep on going
You can make it when no one else believes in you
Have faith my dear your heart is near
it’s up to you what you do
It’s up to you what you make of your life
Decision decisions
Where to go when the feelings lost
You turn and smile and hold on with faith



commit suicide (read all 2 entries…)
PLEASE if anyone cares or has advice please write back to me 2 years ago

Hi, i don’t want to put my name as i’m afraid someone i kno will see it.
i’m 16 years old and i’m completly flat chested. It completly affects my life. i cant affor breast impants and the doctors say its the only option as i will never grow. Everything else on me is completly normal.
Last yr i got so depressed with everything in my life i attempted suicide i overdosed on all these tablets so many infact, iv helped SO MANY ppl saved so many ppl from suicide so i’d love to save you if you need help. But can someone save me? im very other centred. i have a lovely family. i Have no friends, i used to have all the wonderful friends in the world but i moved states. It’s been so hard as i hanged out with really imature self centred ppl at my new school and i dont hava close friend near by. im normally such a social person but im forced to b a loner as i have no one to hang out with. iv finished school.
i cry all the time. no one knoes. not evn my bestfriends who are so distant in km. Most ppl who meet me say im the most beautiful person inside and out theyv eva met. I kno i have a pretty face but i hate my body. i have a big heart, and id do anything for anyone, i support ppl to the maximum, i just care so much about other ppl and one day im going to save the world. But if anyone has any advice it would mean so much.
I kno breasts arnt everything but it’s so embaressing when i go to the pool or beach. i don’t ever whear a bathers or go swimming because of it, i dont evn fit into an A size. All the guys are attracted to me but if i get close and they want a sexual relationship i cant give because i want to be able to give myself when i’m ready, when im happy with my WHole body, compfortably. i fear rejection what would ppl think if they found out i was flat chested? they wouldnt think i was beautiful anymore and it hurts so bad. iv told a few ppl, they kinda look at me strangely and when relatives kno they just kinda stare at my chest oh its so uncompfortable. I wear a paadded bra thats how come no1 knos. i workout everyday so that the rest of my body is in shape but iv always struggled with my weight. I just wanna be accepted the way i am, lvoed the way i am, i want ppl to still love me as much as they do now if they knew like still think the same of me but i know they wont, because i don’t kno ANY other girl my age who is flat the way i am. Iv been bullied so much for my looks by other girls, girls who knew how small i was but evn they didnt kno i was COMPLETLY flat, iv always been good at hiding it. ppl wud acuse me of being anorexic because of how small i look evn with a padded bra. im definetly not ano thats for sure as i love to eat and i have a healthy weight range. PLEASE if anyone cares or has advice please write back to me. i don’t kno if i can go on this way and i kno i wud atempt suicide again if i could rite now if i had a gun or an easy way out but the truth is THERE IS NO EASY WAY OUT i belive everything in life will work out, but i belive my chest isnt one of them, i don’t want to be alone friends wise love wise, forver.
love from me
xoxoxoxo



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