louli89

I wonder if sometimes, I procrastinate because then I have an excuse if I don’t do well. For me, I can get As on tests and assignments with the most minimal effort, but if I don’t get an A, then I can say to myself, “Well, I would have been able to if I tried.”

But that doesn’t really matter. Potential that is not used may as well not exist at all.

I think most of my goals are linked together in that my control is slipping. I mean I don’t have enough motivation or self-control or whatever to get off the computer or start working on my paper or stop biting my nails. And then I just get frustrated and upset because it just feels like I can’t do whatever it is that needs doing.
I read someone else’s entries here, someone mentioned using GoogleCalendar. I think that is a great idea and I am going to start using it too. I am a big fan of Google.

Well, the semester is over in under 2 weeks and I’ve not accomplished this goal. If anything, I’ve gotten worse at not procrastinating.

I don’t know that it is worth it to fix up a schedule or whatnot.
BUT for the summer I will try to have something I do everyday (work in a math book, study a language, etc) and just get in the practice of actually doing something I know I should do. I really think this will help me.

So I was doing really well with this for about 3 days but then I just gave up and bit all my nails. But now I am trying again.
I’ve been putting hand lotion around my nails and when the skin around my nails is soft and smooth I am less tempted to bite.

Also I am planning to put the rubber band back on my wrist and perhaps even put tape around my fingers.
Gum is very important for me to have. Sometimes, I am ashamed to admit, I will remind myself for a few seconds about why I should not bite my nails then I will do it anyway. Gum will distract me. Also I heard some pretty gross stories about nail biting so I can think of that to dissuade me next time, lol.