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  1. 1. be kinder
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  2. 2. Actually run 3-4 times a week
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  3. 3. Want to learn how to sing
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  4. 4. Get angry when I should
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  5. 5. Go to Ai for the Culinary program
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  6. 6. Get up on time
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  7. 7. Learn French
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  8. 8. Write better poetry.
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  9. 9. Love, a love that never dies.
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  10. 10. Try all kinds of food
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  11. 11. Finish my room
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Get angry when I should
Ha

I got angry the other day. At someone OTHER than my dad!!

Alrighty, well I actually got mad at two people!!

Well the first one. Well I was getting dinner and this guy Pat, who is living with me for right now, was telling me, oh yah and he is one of my boyfriends bestfriends, how him and David, another best friend of my man, and Tony and Brett were going to go to Florida for spring break. Well I said “If Tony is going that I am too.” See my boyfriend got into some bad drugs awhile back so his dad and his faimly moved to Hithcock, this small town between Texas City and Galvaston, so that they could be with more faimly and his son would be a way from all that. And he just went on how about it was just a guy thing. And theI said “If Tony is actually alowwed out and can go with yall during spring break you are crazy to think that I am not going. You are crazy to think that Tony wouldn’t want me to be there!” I was yelling at him this whole time. I mean I would understand if it was only a three day thing or if he lived here. But he doesn’t! I said “I mean I NEVER get to see him!!” He then said “You arn’t the only one Niki!” I then said “EXACTLY so then we all go!! So we can then all go and see him!!” and he just kept going on about the guy only thing and I just threw my plate in the sink and walked off. Gave him the silent treatment. Much better than yelling I always thing. Yelling scares people and yes you get an immediate result, but silence peirces deeper and makes them feel bad. I always usually opt for silence. I mean c’mon that is just pure bullshit!!! I pay for him to get here every time he comes down. If it wasn’t for me none of them would see him cause they would NEVER organize it! I mean I have no job, and David does. He NEVER pays. I do! It just gets me quite angry.

I told Tony all this and he agreed with me COMPLETELY! :) War won.



get up on time
Do I have a funny REM cycle?

I am trying I really am! But every morning I decide to say fuck it. I then procede to sleep in, and then when I wake up feel like shit cause I didn’t go to school.



Love, a love that never dies.
I have the ingredients.

Well, you see I am in love. But who is to say it will last forever? I mean everyone in love lives for the moment, that is why they are assumed foolish.

So how am I to know that this is the one.

Feels like the one, but how can I trust my ever-loving heart?

Maybe I am to love forever but he is not, maybe that is more my fear.



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