loveisfree

Finished Fahrenheit 451 a while ago, but have yet to find another book to read. My sister suggested Margaret Atwood’s Oryx and Crake or Jitterbug Perfume by…I forget. I don’t have the money to keep buying books anymore, even at the used book stores around here, and I haven’t paid off my library card yet (whooops…) so, maybe I’ll just have to spend a few hours at Borders instead. Heh.

I know I have the capacity to do this. I’ve done it before, very recently over winter break. The thing is, I was back home. Where I don’t walk by the dessert table every day in the dining hall, where I’m not stressed and buckling under academic pressure, where I don’t feel the bite of loneliness so sharply, where I have the resources to make healthy meals and take my time eating them, and perhaps most importantly, I have a car to get to hot yoga every day.

Here, I eat when I’m lonely, when I’m bored, when I’m stressed, when I’m procrastinating. And I’m almost always doing one of those things.

Exercise helps me to fight the cravings, but I hardly have time to get to the gym, and when I do, I’m so exhausted that I would rather watch TV. But there, that’s an excuse. Most of the time TV is simply a time filler. It’s not something I truly enjoy, and I would much rather be hanging out with friends and having experiences.

TV seems to go hand in hand with sugar binges, as well. I always feel compelled to be eating something when I’m watching TV.

Here’s the plan:

1. Cold turkey on the sweets. I can never just stop at having one. Even if I tell myself “a small cookie won’t hurt”, I always seem to lose my head a bit after having it, and always end up taking more than one. It’s easier to just not have any at all.

2. Exercise 2x a week. My roommate goes often, so it’ll be easy to tag along with her at least on Wednesdays, if I don’t want to be walking around at night. Mondays, I get out of class at 3, so that would be a good time, as well. I should go to my 2 o’clock class in my work out clothes just so there’s one less thing holding me back.

3. Go back to the dorms less often. It seems that once I get back, I don’t do much of anything. This will limit TV time, and as a consequence both up productivity and decrease this horrible snacking.

4. Post my progress here, as something to keep my accountable for my actions.

I am now the victim of the most annoying alarm clock ever. Who can complain, though? Now I actually wake up when I’m supposed to and get to class on time. I wonder if waking up every morning in a panic will cause me long term psychological damage. Welll, even if my nerves are shot and my hearing impaired, I’ll at least have a good attendance record to show for it…. :)