Oh, if I just could!
Lately I really feel I am not doing a good job with this. I am constantly afraid, scared and worried. I think most of it has to do with the direction that’s missing in my life and with the none existing structure. In a way I feel liberated by that, but on the other side I blame myself for it. I am pushing thirty now and I feel that the lack of direction, OK I admit, serious relationship, is a personal failure.
For the last couple of weeks I have just lived in my niche and I haven’t tried to change it, because I am afraid that I am acting from a place of desperation, and that would only attract the wrong kind of people.