in the month of march, i have consumed 77 laxatives. when i counted it, i felt horrible- as if someone punched me really hard in the stomach. this is a bad time for, i miss the loved ones that are gone now and i guess this is how i deal with everything…and missing them.
today i did make a pact to myself that i will not take anymore- atleast try not to for a very,very long time.
i want to detox my body with a detox tea and water, possibly juice fast, and be healthier until i can eat without thinking i need to take laxatives everytime.
for anyone who reads this and thinks having an eating disorder is fun—-it is really not. i recently vomited uncontrolably because of taking too many laxatives-my body could not handle it, and that is why i am going to try to quit them.
i really hope i can do this.
Apr 10, 2007, 02:37PM PDT | 0 comments
i am going to try to go on a water fast for a bit…even if like a day with a detox tea, just to rid of the grease and fatty foods that i have been consuming…then i will attempt to follow that by a juice fast. i cannot make any promises to myself but i will try my best—-with being depressed alot of the time now, it is a little difficult to do this but i will try my best; i am tired of feeling sluggish and bloated and want to feel invigorated.
Apr 10, 2007, 02:28PM PDT | 0 comments
i have exactly fifty days now and i think i can do this even though i keep having to lose thirty more, times have been really rough…after the next couple of days are over…i will lose the thirty pounds. i will and can do this.
i just cannot think negatively; i cn lose the thirty pounds…i just need to calm down and ocus after the next few days are over.
Apr 09, 2007, 02:47PM PDT | 0 comments
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