Callie

If you had a chance to leave
And take some time without me
How far would you go
How long until you know
I’ve been waiting patiently
For your heart and body
All the things we’d love to be
And you’ll stay with me
Let’s take a walk on Saturday
Let’s find a place to get away
We don’t get down in front
We never get what we want
Show me something new
Tell me what to do
We don’t get down in front
We never get what we want

Lay down right now
Let’s go around with claims to beat
It’s now hard for me
You’re impossible to beat
I must have been so, so, I don’t know
Confused or scared to share me
Surround yourself
Surround, surround, surround yourself in me

Oh yeah, on our walk on Saturday
You said you might not stay, hey
If you had a chance to see
How your life would look with love for someone constantly
Would it still be me

Lay down right now
Let’s go around with claims to beat
It’s now hard for me
You’re impossible to beat
I must have been so, so, I don’t know
Confused or scared to share me
Surround yourself
Surround, surround, surround
I must have been so, so, I don’t know
Confused or scared to share me
Surround yourself
Surround, surround, surround yourself in me

Medicine man dancing across the country
Medicine man dancing across the sky
Medicine man now my feet are dragging
Medicine man can you hear my cry

I don’t want to be
The one, the one, the one that you forget
I don’t, I don’t, I don’t just want to be your regret
Oooh oooh oooh oooh

Medicine man I lay my head in your hands
Medicine man you will clear my mind
Medicine man can you heal my body
Medicine man can you hear my cry

I don’t want to be
The one, the one, the one that you forget
I don’t, I don’t I don’t just want to be your regret
Oooh oooh oooh oooh

I don’t know where to begin
I don’t know how to break the bottle I’m living in
Do any thing to take away the memory of him
Can’t you see that I have no way out
Don’t leave me now

Medicine man, clear my mind
Medicine man oooh
Medicine man hear my cry
Medicine man oooh
Medicine man you are here in my mind
Medicine man oooh
Medicine man hear my cry
Medicine man ooooh
Medicine man, medicine man, medicine man
Oooh

I’m not comin’ back
I’m not gonna react
I’m not doin’ shit for you.
I’m not sittin’ around while you are tearin’ it down around us.
I’m not livin’ a lie while you swim in denial
‘Cause you’re already dead and gone
You leave me out on the curb just like everyone else before you.

Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone.
Another lesson burned
And I’m drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world

I don’t care what you think I’m not seeing a shrink.
I’m not doing this again.
I’m not another student or a mother to take your shit out on
So let’s see what you got, let’s see what you’re not
And what ever else you pretend
You’ve defended my intentions long enough

Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone.

Another lesson burned
And I’m drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world

So here I am again.
In the middle of the end.
And the choice I wish I made
I always make too late

Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone.
Another lesson burned
And I’m drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world.

My world
My world (welcome to my world)
My world
My world (welcome to my world)
My world
Welcome baby.

I have a couple of Sailor Jerry swallows on my shoulders and I’m thinking of accenting them with some Ludo lyrics (There’s a time to pray & There’s a time to fight) and adding some stars and possibly turning it into a complete piece on my shoulders. It might take me a while to complete because it’s probably going to cost quite a bit but I think I have a clear picture of what I want in my head.

Fuck.

Carve your heart out yourself
Hopelessness is your cell
Since you’ve drawn out these lines
Are you protected from trying times?

Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has
Lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all
Oh look now, there you go with hope again
Oh, you’re so sure I’ll be leaving in the end

Dig a ditch deep enough
To keep you clear of the sun
You’ve been burned more than once
You don’t think much of trust

Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has
Lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all
Oh look now, there you go with hope again
But I’ll be sure your secret is safe with me
Oh, you’re so sure I’ll be leaving in the end
Treating me like I’m already gone

But I’m not, I will stay where you are always
I will stay, I will stay, I will stay (all of now)

...My dog would quit pissing on the carpet! I’m at my wits end with her. I take her out and two minutes later she pisses on the carpet, I’ve shampooed the hallway 4 times in the past two months… Stupid dog…

There’s only a couple of weeks left… Unfortunatly, I have to put EIU on hold for a semester because my stupid student loan isn’t here yet and my transcripts can’t be released until my bill is paid… I’m about to go Linda Blair on those student loan assholes!!

It took some time for me to decide to finally do it but I went friday and just did it! I have a ring for now (hate it!) but I’m going to change it to a stud as soon as the healing it done….

I know you’re alone
In the dark, all alone
Underneath the covers
Hiding from the demons
That came for your soul.

They might be over in the closet
They might be underneath your bed
They might be just outside your window, baby
Or maybe just inside your head.

But if you let me stay over
I’ll try to keep you safe
I’ve got an army of skeletons
To chase your demons away.

I know that you’re scared
You’re in the dark, so scared
Simply terrified, no one’ll hear you screaming
If they could would they care?

There’s only one way to find out
I pray that day never comes
For that would mean the ending of you, baby
The end of you, my love.

But if you let me stay over
I’ll try to keep you safe
I’ve got an army of skeletons
To chase your demons away.

And baby, I can tell you’ve been crying
Oh baby, I know you’ve been lying to me
Yes indeed.
Oh baby, I can tell you don’t sleep no more
Oh baby, believe me I’ve been there before.

If you let me stay over
I’ll try to keep you safe
I’ve got an army of skeletons
To chase your demons away.

18. Discovering new bands at shows – I love when I find a band I like at a concert. It’s so much more fun than finding new shit on the net because you already know if they are any good live or not!

17. Cheesy rock covers of pop songs – How can you not smile and feel good listening to Me First and the Gimme Gimmes singing Sinead O’Connors “Nothing Compares to You” or any other rock bands rocking out that cheesy pop song! I love it!

Self-loathing is quaint, you told me, showing restraint.
Now you’re gone and I’m lost, in the swells I am tossed
bobbing and choking and losing the fight in the fog.
You said, “Forever….” Tell me, why can’t you stay?

I’d ride in your pocket all day, but I just don’t fit
Say the word and I’ll change, I’m throwin’ a party
tonight, I drink more than a sailor on shore
Pour the rum in my eyes, tell me lies.

Oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh-oh-oh
Drunk since Saturday, without you, without restraint.
It sill stings where you stung, water swings in my lungs
I’m starving for words that would ration my sadness away.
Tell me, “Forever….” Tell me you’ll come back to stay.

You were the mermaid for me
‘til one day you found your feet
leaving me
in this god-awful bottle, a model of heartache and grief.

Wide eyed.
Knee deep in surprise.
Just below your thighs the temperature drops 5 degrees.
Your stand-by flight has just arrived.
Tongue-tied bleeding from your eyes.
even Christ himself would cringe at the sight of your scars
While you’re counting sheep,
I’ll count my lucky stars.
You were the last good thing I ever saw.
I lost it all
I lost it all
Burned out on 2 hours of shut-eye.
Eyes glazed at the thought of the next 8 hours.
Headwind cold rain to wake me.
You were the last good thing I ever saw

Sweet like a kiss sharp like a razor blade
I find you when I’ m close to the bottom
You cant appreciate the time it takes
To kick a love I always knew was kind of wrong
And as I’m putting out the flame
Somebody brings up you name

Oh oh oh oh
Baby baby baby bring me down
I want to be right where you are
Baby baby baby bring me down
You can look me in the eye and break my heart
Break my heart

Six AM unruffled pillow
Laughs out loud at my trusting heart
It’s like I didn’t see the penny
I missed the fountain by a couple yards
If you would only stay gone
Maybe I could move on

Oh oh oh oh
Baby baby baby bring me down
I want to be right where you are
Baby baby baby bring me down
You can look me in the eye and break my heart
Break my heart

OH! Baby baby baby bring me down
I want to be right where you are
Baby baby baby bring me down
You can look me in the eye and break my heart
Break my heart

OH! Baby baby baby bring me down
I want to be right where you are
Baby baby baby bring me down
You can look me in the eye and break my heart
Break my heart

Bring me down…

16. Halloween – It’s my favourite holiday! It’s the one time of the year that my morbid tendencies are somewhat “normal”... I don’t like the candy… yuck!

15. New haircuts – Another way to change up my look and I just love getting compliments from people… And it’s always fun to watch someone try to figure out what’s different about you!

14. Hair color – I’m a chronic dyer! I just went all over red but before that I had blue streaks in my dark brown hair… I love having a new look and getting compliments!!

13. Piercings – Another addiction! I have 9 but I’m pretty much done with piercings tho I have a couple in mind that I’d like to have I think… hmmm… maybe I’m not done!!

12. Tattoos – I’m addicted, what can I say? I currently have 6 and I’m sure not stopping anytime soon….