lucyann2

I already feel like going out and spending all of my pay cheque that I haven’t even earned yet. Yet I must resist as this job is a six month means to a life time of fulfillment.
I need to save as much money as possible in order to afford to go back and finish my MA.
So – here’s my frugal plan.
1. Bring in own sandwiches every day to save lunch money.
2. Save between £200-£500 per month depending on take home pay after tax and student loan deductions
3. Find and take driving lessons
4. Walk to work (this should be easy due to lack of direct bus and proximity to home).
5. Only buy cheap work clothes
6. Do not get back into habit of buying lots of luxury items to make up for the fact I have to go to work
7. Don’t go mental at Christmas
8. Don’t get back into the habit of having a haircut every six weeks – try to stretch it to 8 -10 weeks per cut.
9. organise my food shopping better to stop me not having anything proper in and then having to go to the little Tesco and buy expensive student food.
10. Stay away from Ebay. I’ve already caught myself thinking about starting up my vinyl collection again.

I don’t mean a nervous twitch or squint I mean that I sometimes find myself giving someone a cheeky little wink in formal situations. I find it difficult to control it and it’s annoying as it is a little bit inappropriate.

Or, as that translates inside my head ‘It’s complicated being a Wizard’....thank you Portugal the Man.
So, I’m going to be suspending my MA studies for a year which both sucks and blows simulatiously. It is for the best though, even if the greater good means that I have to put a deeply fulfilling occupation to one side. A year ago I was full of doubt about whether I was clever enough to do an MA now I worry that I might not get a distinction and that I might not get to do a PhD afterward.
Is this magic? Well, I never thought that I would have to make these kinds of choices ever. I’ve been offered a job, a good job researching a subject I’m very interested in and passionate about and this just so happens to coincide with my near financial ruin and someone in my family being pretty unwell and me needing to spend more time with them. I’m excited about the job and quite frankly just amazed that I actually managed to get a job in the current economic climate. However I am completely bummed out to be putting uni on hold. Sometimes when I visualise my MA graduation ceremony I get tearful because it will mark the end of an extrodinary amount of effort, nerve and personal (and financial) sacrfice on my part to bring me to that moment. The fact that I’m defering seems even more sad by the fact that my lovely tutor emailed me today to tell me that I was an “excellent student” and that it was very important that I returned to complete my studies. I do intend to return, my heart is set on it. It’s just sad that I have to leave for a year. I suppose the magic is the fact that losing something makes you realise just how much you loved it. It feels like the time I lost my guitar except this time I’m not going to get my course back for a whole year….