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Happiness also comes from giving. Whether it be gifts, money, or even hugs+kisses to loved ones, it truly changes everything. This year I have met some new people and received a couple of gifts as a nice unnecessary gesture for christmas. I am pretty close though to one of my older co-workers who I often refer to as another ‘mom’. Very nice and caring. She gave me a bracelet. So I asked what she wanted and I got her a lottery ticket with a card and slipped it into her locker at work before the day.

Another co-worker who is also a friend gave me a sketch,
which totally reminded me of those ‘anime’ days in my childhood.
I still like it, though. And because since I gave her a character sketch in the first place, I suppose. I find it difficult to keep up with old friends from highschool at times. Not unless you say something they’ll respond to other than that what’s the point.
[rant] It leaves me thinking about their lives and if they even like me for who I am, anyways, but that’s another story. Ah, this damn avoidance or more like an empty one. Can’t help but to say I need a guy in my life. Sorry.

On topic- So, I made another random drawing for a friend whom I haven’t heard yet via online. I wonder how she’s doing..She gave me cookies last year so I hope to hear from her again. Everyone else got their holiday wishes from me which is good and family loved their gifts..

Well, this is it for now.
Update more later~

I’m 22 and just about a year ago, I have decided to move into a new place with my family after months of decision making. I realized it was fear that held me back which I am still struggling with today- financially and emotionally. Now is the time for getting chances before taking the next big step..

As the lonely days get longer, I’ve been finding myself to be writing thoughts down in my journal. I guess..it gives me a bit of release, but somewhat unhappy about some things that I wrote. =/
I hope to keep it more positive this time..