luuce




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work because I like to, not because I have to
still alright 2 months ago

I work as a cashier now which is pretty simple, but boring. Well it’s at least better than being where there’s so much chaos…


get another job
yay 2 months ago

I am so done…with fast-food. Dang. Found another decent job at a closer location so I’ll be out of there and by then it’s back to school time. Goal achieved?


To live instead of exist
out of control 2 months ago

Work has taken over a lot. I feel out of focus not sure what to do in the world. Basically losing interest in things I enjoy doing and rather staying inside the house hiding or from total exhaustion. Honestly, I like to be more open around people I can talk to and be friendly with, which helps me boost my self-esteem a little. I’m just so sick of them being judgemental and telling me what I should do with my life while constantly being strings attached to something that seems almost impossible to escape. I guess I’m just not trying hard enough. A weak person. Everyday is the same miserable day. I’m always filled with anger sometimes ready to pull a trigger at someone or throw something at them. Not literally, though..but you know what I mean.
If only someone could help me get out of this dark misery and loneliness all at the same time instead of living to one’s expectations and lose the fake smile for once.


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